Kak Sri

Prayers

2012-01-30T12:34:00.003+08:00

Even after all this time,

the sun never says to the earth,”You owe me.”

Look what happens with a love like that.

It lights the whole sky.

Hafiz of Persia

One of the most Beautiful quotes I have ever chanced upon.It is so simple yet awakening.

I am having this new swipe state of mind.It started after my gynae told me all the good not bad you are fine,until she pointed out a new diameter.

I am still thankful my husband was by my side.He did not have to ask anything.But his presence truly motivated me a whole lot and comfort me within.

All I could say after the consultation was..."Abang,doakan ok."

Tak perlu nangis or pengsan.I was actually feeling half stupor.And it kicked in properly when I was relaxing with my 3 heroes in the evening.I was very direct to my sons,relating what the doc just told of my condition.And my Husain...ya Allah...Husain.I fed him dinner with my hand that same evening.Tears just freely fell as I was pinching chicken n rice to feed.He didnt have to say anything.I knew why.So when things were calmer,I talked to him.I told him he did not have to worry all that much as it was not confirmed and tested yet.Just a concern and might bes.He stopped and reminded him prayers will be so much appreciated :))

So,my habit each time...rummaging thru the internet for infos.Same insight as what the gynae had told.Okay I was wee bit scared at first but not too bad now.I try not to think too much about it and try wholeheartedly to let go and leave it to Allah swt...meantime,I am starting a new diet,insya'Allah.Mainly fruit n juice.I might have to say goodbye to my favourite Jack n Jill bbq potato chips and convert to corn chips but dip musti nak ada....ahak.

It has been an alarm bell eversince.And this matter I did wonder before.But taking things smoothly and live life as usual...nothing too different except for some improvements that I have lacked a lot.Kicking myself for that but yes, it does makes me want to talk a lot from the inside.

In 3 months time,when normally it should be an annual follow up,I have to go for another scan n observation.I deeply hope that everything is okay and having just the usual recurrence of what I have for years already which healed for a couple in between.

Allah swt is bigger than anything I have and might have.So,instead of mulling over what my doc said and all,will try to divert this concern wholly to He swt.Just talk n talk n talk whats going on in my mind.

Eitherwise,I want to open my heart and Redha everything,amin...this I pray may Allah give me that super strength when the time comes..amin.

Meantime....the countless blessings is still in tact.Thank You ya Allah....you're the Best lah.

Mohon doa ya kengkawan...terimakasih dan semoga Allah swt memberkati mu semua dimana saja anda berada...amin.

Lapar now,lunch soon.

The quickest way to change your attitude toward pain is to accept the fact that everything that happens to us has been designed for our spiritual growth. ~M. Scott

2012-01-28T00:05:00.000+08:00

"LAA ILAHA ILLA ANTA SUBHANAKA INNI KUNTU MINADZHAALIMIIN"

No one has yet realized the wealth of sympathy, the kindness and generosity hidden in the soul of a child. The effort of every true education should be to unlock that treasure. Emma Goldman

2012-01-25T16:04:00.000+08:00

When kids are young,we feel safe.Because it is when at this age that they keep us on toes and watch our ourselves first.Children are wonderful beings kan.....

Quotes...my next best companions.

2012-01-24T12:20:00.001+08:00

http://www.quotegarden.com/humility.html

http://www.quotegarden.com/contest-20120119.html

Much thanks to Terri,the site owner for quotegarden.Made it :))

Paintjob done.The kids are happily cosying up in their room after being roomless since Saturday but of course,we all slept together in the living room in a row but today,they are back to their newly painted room and moving stuff a bit here and there,and feel like new.They had the freedom to choose their colour on the walls hence dual.Green and Blue,we only suggested the kind of tone to go together so it wont turn out totally mismatched like that.Alhamdulillah,the boys and Abah did well with the paintjob.Thick and nice.The hard part would be the cleaning up and sorting the wants and the throws stuff.You know kids this age are curious lot who like to keep little stuff for keepsake,be it little wee safetypins to little papers of drawings.

I did not help much with the paintjob sebab sibuk kat dapur.So lunch prep for them while the threesome paint in the room.The kids had fun being messy and painting the walls.Macam freedom gitu kan.All that happened yesterday and this morning was cleaning up,getting stuff back to places and trashing.Done and relaxing day today.Periuk also got gantung.Yippps!

Oh yes it was nice to hear crowds in the neighbours' house from our unit.Very raya raya with happy chatterings and laughter.Nice kan.Gong Xi Fa Cai indeedy :))

Oklah,have a great week.Thursday got check up and I hope and pray nothing will suggest going under the knife no more...takmo.Amin ya Rabb.

Don't worry be happy all.Live the now and present!Husnuzon towards Allah swt and people around you yepp!

Before preparing to improve the world, first look around your own home three times.

2012-01-18T09:42:00.002+08:00

It is a Chinese Proverb...a recent fan of such proverbs,loads of deep wisdom in them.

We had a good walk on the Helix Bridge last weekend.Apek aiskrim very clever to park his cart at a very stratergic place,dah penat2 jalan makan aiskrim so the kids had that.

It was a good long walk....i said long because I jarang go for one and this one sweat me out a lot.Haven't upload the pics here because very snail mode lah from hp camera to pc.Insya'Allah someday.

Someone asked a favour yesterday. I agree or not? I do not know.Prolly because of my ego that made me delay to reply. Because it sounded more of an order and I am supposed to obligate it just because.Ego kan....tengok lah besok2 macam mana.Ni dah simmer sikit tapi bila terima msg semalam rasa hot jugak.

"Can you get Hassan to * ?" camnilah gayanya.

Ermmm....for now macam no.If this question comes from my mom,mil,husband or brother...I will without a second thought.Even if my boys were to ask this way,I'll suggest them to rephrase it.

This is what I think a practice of adab that I do take seriously especially if it comes from someone who is not family and hardly meet.

And I really think this is quite bold of the person....because this is not the first time such...err..request asked in such a manner.Before, she expected my sons to take care of her precious and regarded my sons as her bodyguards (declared my sons' 'job post' to me and expected me to agree auto..nope,sorry).My sons were questioned without my knowledge on why they did not do their job of taking care of her...err...precious.I encourage them to give help when there are friends in need when they can afford to but sometimes they were not there to do it....

I gave my thoughts,just like any other moms would defend their child... because they are not muhrims to precious.And a sheepish reply followed...done.

Another request came....old habits die slow lah kan.My habit pulak makin gitu macam makin senyapkan diri.

Sigh...actually I could grant her that favour tak banyak trouble pun but it did get to me lah in the way that I was being asked or rather ordered about.

But then...there is the ego in me.Tsk...

Oh well,eitherways,it can be done.Insya'Allah.Oklah telan jer lah babe...

Have a great midweek :)

The world talks to the mind. Parents speak more intimately -- they talk to the heart. Hain Ginott

2012-01-13T23:26:00.000+08:00

These guys are gradually blooming....times flies.For sure we are chummier :))

Ponder...

2012-01-13T08:55:00.001+08:00

Siding with those who are wrong in a dispute just because they are more closely related to us, friends, business partners, countrymen or known to us more than the one who is correct is a grave sin that comes back to haunt us some day. A considerable number of people would side with their family members in a dispute when they know very well that they are totally wrong. The same applies to friends, ...business partners and acquaintances. This is blatant oppression. A true believer will even side with a stranger when he is correct against those who are nearer in relation or acquaintance. If we oppress in this manner a day will come when in a much more important issue, we may be let down by those who have lied simply to please "their" kith & kin. Imagine a world where justice depends on whether you are connected to the witnesses in one way or another or not. Sadly in some homes where daughters in law are considered outsiders, they too are treated in this way. It is also noticed that some people are ready to side with the influential and the rich and famous rather than the middle or lower categories of society thinking that they may lose their standing with them or a deal or two. This results in the disintegration of society and the spreading of disunity and chaos. What goodness is there in such a "standing" or "deal" with oppressors? Always side with those who are correct even if it be against those closest to you in relation. Refer Qur'aan 4:135

~Mufti Ismail Menk

This piece of impactful reminder reminds me of a dilemma of thoughts I had sometime ago.I had a strong feeling to share this among them but my cowardice said no.I hope by now,they know, understand and empathise already.Edited and published.

2012-01-11T10:12:00.001+08:00

As much as we are not bothered of what people may think of us,do not overlook the hidden truths in them.This can only be felt in our hearts and let that educate us to be better.

I am made for SAM (Spore Art Museum) ~ Its slogan ni.

2012-01-10T09:56:00.001+08:00

These are what we did last Sunday.Our first trip to the museum for Hassan is a huge art fan.But most gallery doors were closed due to installation work so we paid flat rate,kids only.But blessing in disguise,we had a great family activity time as the pics below,a 'as long as many as creative as you want' arty session in a hall within the building premise.

We had a fantastic time creating stuff with futuristic theme in mind,silver papers and all .We all started with apa nak buat ni eh? session is ending..bla bla...and because we all star karat masuk session,we were the last family to leave.We were quite apologeticlah because the workshop assistants were too kind to tell us to leave so we asked if we had to leave when due time.Actually we were too comfortable with the cool aircon and pipe in music that complimented the aura of being there..heh.The very warm n friendly assistants told us cheerfully that it was ok for us to stay as long as we want and no hurry to finish off tah apa2 aku create tu lah..And sebab naik lemak dah kasi chan kita pun stay lah lama2....betul feeling satu macam lah gi sana.Tak dapat pergi europe,feeling europe ni macam pun jadi lah...ahaks.

So bila dah warm up dengan amoi peramah situ,kita bual2 about the worth of art in spore,and surprised to know some info how art is viewed and recognised here...chett!The amoi is a postgraduate from ntu studied arts there and she shared a lot of stuff about art in spore and all,something that I had never discussed in my life with anyone as you know,nak berbual pasal art kan mesti kena bual dengan a mutual art fan also kan.And she recommended National Museum to us to look at pieces brought in all the way from Lourve...wah liao..Hassan n I were so delighted but next change lah.Both of us are fans or monet van gogh and all things popular classics of that time and before..Hope to go this wkd kalau DH ok with it heee.

Oklah...sharing here the end product of family star karat...Cuba teka saya punya yg mana.Chicken lah ni...

After the experience,I am almost in the mood to paint,on easel board,nice palette,canvas and dozens of tube poster paints...topi senget kat kepala mcm pro included.Ok takpe berangan jauh sangat,dapur belum berasap lagi.But truly for me,art is therapeutic.It is freedom....I wish art is never graded in schools.That is true appreciation of Art.

Happy week all.

Mentelism

2012-01-07T09:30:00.001+08:00

Castleville Krepek indefinitely.

Worry not that no one knows of you; seek to be worth knowing.~ Confucius

2012-01-05T09:49:00.001+08:00

I told here before how concerned I was about Husain being in That class this year,with regards to his past experience when he was in That class type, in P2...P4 now and he is sort of back to That class.

Alhamdulillah syukur sangat pada Allah swt...he seems so happy to be in That class this time a total opposite sentiment he felt 2 years ago since day 1 school semester started.I was kind of nervous on his first day because I truly want him to be happy to school.

And know what, what kind of Teacher a class gets matters a whole lot.And his teacher according to him describing about her is almost all positive.She even shared her own 'herstory' of how she was 'bullied' by her teachers in her school years and told the class she would not plan to treat her pupils like how she was treated.Sweet kan! No more name callings,snooty criticisms, taking advantage of and what nots that sometimes,not all,but some teachers in schools I experience with thru my kids' feedbacks,a trusted friend n within my earshot even...so freely had done so.Kindy teachers are taught and trained on how to deal with kids emotionally / psychologically and all...and I truly believe,Primary school teachers onwards should go to the same course as well.....Not sure if it is done already but truly,at least read about it.Ni speaking thru experience k.

So I am so thankful to Allah swt that Husain and his classmates got a good teacher,ok I can say ni baru first week but insya'Allah, considering what his teacher had shared in the first day...oklah kott..Last year's not bad at all....well,Husain had to practice resilience in that year and insya'Allah he knows his rights and manage his feelings better insyaAllah....Yeyy...SnortAllSnootys!!!!

Hassan has been consistently with fairly nice teachers thru his Pri school years thus far....alhamdulillah.Being separated from his twin bro is not a problem much except that he did voiced how he wished he could be in the same class as Husain, sentimental reasons :)) Allah decides Best right...P1 sama class, P2 lain2 class,P3 sama lagik,P4 lain semula.....see,give space2 lah to each other...heeee.

Like I have always told,be a good friend and pupil in all mannerisms and behaviour.Academically intellectual close second...I would love them to adopt the Confucious sayings.Insya'Allah...

So lovely to look at pictures of first days of school going children everywhere...cute sangat lah!! Crita tang nangis,heran,confuse semua cerita cute and very normal lah eh for first timers.In no time they'll be so comfortable sangat sampai tak sabar nak gi school....heeeee.So cute lah.

May Allah swt bless our children with best of Akhlak,Iman and Wisdom thru their living years...amin.

These guys I miss everyday....though they're home :P

2012-01-03T23:56:00.000+08:00

Live long enough,two digit age this year... I miss the younger yous but never miss to love yous.

An honest man is hurt by praise unjustly bestowed.

2012-01-03T23:45:00.000+08:00

It is a French proverb and also this reminds me of a statement by Sayidina Ali,may Allah swt be pleased with him.

This is a strong reminder for myself to tame this heart and head from being conceited.

Imagine, ni contoh eh..if someone came and compliment me for being a very good wife when I just had a good tiff with my spouse sinfully minutes ago.If someone came and say I am a very good cook when minutes ago I just burnt my gravy that he did not get to taste..If someone came up to me saying I am a very patient and warm person when I just gave a good lungly yell unto my kids for being naughty and forced them to stay in their bedroom....praises become so very painful isn't it.

Ya Allah...you are the Most Knowing the secrets of every being whom you have created.How embarassing....

Teacher is right ..... astaghfirullah it first.

Alhamdulillah to reality.

You don't have to be a "person of influence" to be influential. In fact, the most influential people in my life are probably not even aware of the things they've taught me.~Scott Adams

2012-01-02T09:08:00.002+08:00

Many...I pay more attention to underdogs,common people,of high humility unawares,down to earths,nyonyas and apeks next door,youths of less arrogance,Renovaid,utensils collectors in coffeeshops/food centres,flat cleaners,toilet cleaners who are always so ready to smile at you,apologetic staff in retails/restaurant,newspaper vendors,teachers who are not dictators and so many more who are the everyday people..husband and my kids inclusively needless to say.

'Not even aware'...this is the main factor that makes me want to keep an eye to what unaware words that one has spoken,logically right and honest.

I do not need trumpets or trumpeteers.

They are too noisy,confusing and make space stuffy.

Who can influence with such high humility humbleness and arrogance made absent?

The perfect being,our beloved prophet Muhammad saw...may peace be upon him.

He did not need facebook blogs or any networking device to influence anyone.Yet,he influenced and taught many in the most humbling and kind ways instead of patronizing or arrogance filled declarations.

.....no one is superior than thou.Especially in this zaman or era.Tricks and tricked in abundance everywhere.

May Allah swt tame our hearts from being tricked by the Syaitan influencing us by making a wrong sound so right....amin.

Maaf zahir batin.

Have a great year,have a productive dream and goals,have a great time creating of newselves and life.

Let's just head towards being better than before.Let the right people of real people influence us.Amin.

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2011-12-28T00:13:00.000+08:00

It is not always what we know or analyzed before we make a decision that makes it a great decision. It is what we do after we make the decision to implement and execute it that makes it a good decision...William Pollard

Our similarities are different.~Philip James Bailey

2011-12-27T00:21:00.000+08:00

Yes,my twins sons are like that and so are you and me ♥ So,sorrylah today I did not give 'you' good answers to the question 'who is cleverer' and such :) That question is to me,obsolete and redundant.I got that too many times and I never liked to answer that was almost a refusal and rudely silence.

Better neutral questions next time ok.

Blearghhhhh....bluek n blahhh to a system.

Just because...

2011-12-21T17:06:00.002+08:00

Not sure what to blog about but I'll see where this is going towards...

Basically freee time for everyone is now,with regards to schoolhols.Cooking will be done by noon and that is for dinner as well unless I have to do last minute frying of chicken fish or nuggets as these being enjoyed better when hot and fresh from kuali.Gravy n soup dishes are done in the morning so,afternoon at this time is free free free....I like this routine we have been thru.The kids would sometimes read or just write stuff in their diaries or doodle things in it.Alamak last nite when we were at popular bookstore to get their schoolbags,I saw the most beautiful organisers displayed.I was itching to get one for myself but....I am not organised enough to have one thinking back.Yes my habit of spending is like this always...I would almost confirm myself to get one and hold it to get that right vibe before paying sekali takde vibe sangat lah so put back...heee.Tak perlu I told myself...anyways,I was only in love with the cover design which was really pretty.That was it...so,balik and jalan daaaa....

Playdates with the two Bs was finaled yesterday telling them to have another next year in the school hols again.The boys had been coming over for quite a number of play sessions at home and they were no trouble at all.Main2 kecoh2 biasalah n good that the boys took things under control when too loud due to too excited main2 and they'd listen,easy peasy.Alhamdulillah...I told my boys to be good hosts to them and gently tell them where they should not be around during play (my bedroom of course lah kan..heee) and to keep their voice down when terlajak main seronokkk sangat sampai decibel tak boleh angss....I wash my hands off once they enter the house and let them play without mak around sebab tadi dah briefing kan.So far so good coz the Bs are good kids.Don't mind them again next year...insya'Allah.

Beyblading awayyyy

Sunday to a sis in law's abode for tahlil....the date is my late fil's birthday hence the tahlil.He is missed a lot.And prolly the following Monday to JB to visit my maternal uncle.Just a social visit sebab dah lama tak jenguk n hopefully my mom got to reach him before our arrival takut keluar pulak bila kita sampai.Tengoklah macam mana.

Oklah....takde bende sangat.Here's a shout out to my dear stalker....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO NORAINI !!! MAY ALLAH BLESS YOU N FAMILY WITH ALL THE GOODNESS HERE AND HEREAFTER..AMIN!

Ha arr lah kita nyer bday dekat2....12 17 19 (my hub) then 22 then my late pa's 31 then siapa lagi...December is a biggie month for us and a reminder we just get older each day.....heee.

Oklah...nak mandi.5 already n the boys are looking fwd to a ch8 drama later.....I encourage them also lah sebab the subtitles could in a lot of ways improve their english lang....have a great midweek and huggies! (to the ladies onee)

I love this man...

2011-12-19T09:45:00.000+08:00

You give but little when you give of your possessions. It is when you give of yourself that you truly give.~Kahlil Gibran...that is so him :)

A very caring son,a very loving husband,a very patient n joyful father and a lovely sahabah thru our blessed bliss ♥.Happy Birthday to my favourite man ♥♥♥

"Thank you for being you and the bread you bring home everyday.Your every little acknowledgement... that you make verbal,is what makes me love you more every each day.Thank you for not just being a man but being a real man ♥ Looking forward to growing old together (and being silly crazy kaklarr:)) with continued bliss,insya'Allah.

May Allah swt reward you for your untiring and diligent being, to give yourself each time,amin."

Cooking something nice warm and full of love......he deserves it,everyday actually,insya'Allah <3

Yok Shopping/Berpasar sambil jaga adab...insya'Allah!

2011-12-16T08:35:00.003+08:00

For Allah's sake and our sake :)

2011-12-15T09:49:00.002+08:00

Treat those who are good with goodness, and also treat those who are not good with goodness. Thus goodness is attained. Be honest to those who are honest, and be also honest to those who are not honest. Thus honesty is attained.

Lao Tzu

No one ever ruined his eyesight by looking at the bright side of life.George E Bergman

2011-12-14T23:51:00.001+08:00

It is almost 12midnite.A good time to reflect what was the day all about.I would say,I could have done more and better but slack was what happened today.Ok,I'll try better tomorrow.Insya'Allah.This body needs somekind of electric jolt :))

Anyways,love having my kids during the hols...so fast lah hols ending.We did a browse thru of their new text books.Hope I can do the same or better in tutoring them next year,amin.P4 is getting tougher.Got to do my research n homeworks before digging into it and teach.

Not all that bad....boys and I had a good laughing time today...much of doing nothing but we chatted and laughed extra sort of.My boys are getting more humorous every each day...very entertaining like that.I do refereeing of course but most times I let them fight their own battles :PP But they are okay generally alhamdulillah....hence school hols is hardly a tension filled month and such.I am so going to miss them a lot when new semester starts.Booohooo.

Got to turn in now.Looking forward to tomorrow.Prolly bro's twins and dotter coming over to play :))) Insya'Allah,live again tomorrow...wallahua'lam.

Amin to second chances again n again...

ps: a good lesson recently....sometimes,something happy comes from people we least expect them to,so do not underestimate a simple general kindness from them as they may just be the people who take interest in you most,alhamdulillah n insya'Allah.

To exist is to change, to change is to mature, to mature is to go on creating oneself endlessly.~Henri Bergson

2011-12-12T20:42:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah.Old and Alive.Alive is second Chances.Chances is to Change.Change is to do Better...Insya'Allah.My gratitude to Allah swt for this Chance to be alive, my parents who raised me,my husband and children who are always the gentlemen as am the only female in the house :))) my mil for her love,my teachers for shaping n inspiring,my bro n family for ketawa kelakar obitt together n best listeners and friends online offline..for letting me,be me... your doas,motivation and all♥

I turn 41 today and do I feel more than 41 actually.The sengal sana sini part lah ...BUT!! Alhamdulillah for this breathing day that Allah swt bless me with.

Had a great time at the airport,ok ...kids had more fun actually and mak received that as gifts for today tomorrow forevahhh...amin.Must thank my husband so very much for taking last minute half day off despite the workload in his office and all.End year kan but insisted he would and he did and I am so happy and touched he did....he is my everyday present,alhamdulillah.

Takde cake cake lah...rumah ni pun takde hantu kek sangat.Cards dari anak2 ada,dari tuari dah bagi tak sabao sabao tapi best :)) Kelakar betul buat pantun situ...kalau rajin kita upload ek.

Oklah happy bedeyy to me lah...macam tak kuasa tang bedey bedey ni sejak masuk zone gini macam...tapi bila dapat keluar jalan2 mmg best jugak lah.Cuma yang penting rasa syukur ketibaan kita ke dunia ini,pengorbanan mama papa kita,sakit pedih mama kita lahirkan kita...rasanya tu semua wajib kita ingati time datang birthday ni.InsyaAllah.

Ok have a great week all.

The hardest arithmetic to master is that which enables us to count our blessings. Eric Hoffer

2011-12-08T09:12:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah to your story and my story in our lives......

Search for it,see it,remember it,think about it,reflect it and all is actually well....amin.

Parenting

2011-12-08T08:40:00.000+08:00

http://www.qalaminstitute.org/2011/12/parenting-lessons-from-the-story-of-maryam/

Beautiful and inspiring,insya'Allah.

Gambar JB.

2011-12-07T16:51:00.000+08:00

Ni diaaa...nothing outstanding lah but the series of pictures ni tell where and what we were doing...heee.Boring tau,ni warning dulu eh.

From the window of the hotel room corridor...the new mall KSL,a condo/hotel (unsure) on the way at the top

Upon entering,attack the crisp bed.Extra bed at 50RM :)

I love walking here, towards our corner room,with soothing pipe in music and the...smell :PP

The lonely single pool...nothing fancy.But the kids love it :)

Mak malas nak turun the next day,snapped this one from our room :)

Tesco Tebrau foodcourt....so so food :)

Surau Sungai Tebrau

Sunyi Sepi Tenang

Perkarangan nya

Small but pretty n pristine.

Looking thru these pictures,we sure love to go there again n again n again n again......this is our kind of holiday so to speak lah...stay in days in the room.We did not drive around much except for the search for singgah selalu eating place which to me is quite pricy.Anyways,it was a very good break from the routine back home.

It was slightly special in a way,that trip was.

I found my 'tamirs' love band which I thought was lost for good....it was lost for some months :(

It is a simple white gold ring I have since we just got married.It was not cincin kawin...it was a gift we gave ourselves that truly mean a lot.It is carved with our names on it...as well as our akad nikah date.

Needless to say it is a sentimental value.I was so so sad when I thought it was lost forever...and did not tell my husband about it for some months since.My bad :(((

I was digging for my nailclipper in my bag with all sorts of knick knacks and whatnots...Got my fingers on it as I walked away to clip my kids' nails.Masya Allah sangat sangat,as I was about to position it before clipping,the ring was in my palm......almost magically,miraculously...macam cerita bedek kan tapi I was so so so shocked sampai mulut ternganga ....alhamdulillah...ya Allah.

It was the right time to tell my husband gitu kan....he did not know I lost it before.Bukan sebab takut kena marah...he jarang marah one but takut disappoint him gitu.Tak sampai hati nak bilang.So told him right after and he smiled also amazed what I just discovered.

So gitulah....a memorable stay like that.

Actually kan,mana mana nak pergi holiday,asal ada kaki or company best best,mana2 pun memang seronok.Penting kalau kita semua boleh relax and be ourselves....hehehhe.Macam family sendiri lah...nak bengkok ke nak terbalik ke nak terkinja2 ke semua boleh diterima....kakkakakkkakak!!

Ok ni kat rumah ada si bryan n adik dia playdate kat rumah ni....3rd session gitu.I like them a lot sebab ada sopan n pandai bawak diri gitu.Have a good midweek and hepi hepi ok!

Take a listen...take a deeper listen n read its meaning.

2011-12-07T11:34:00.000+08:00

Home Sweetie Home !

2011-12-06T09:29:00.001+08:00

We're given second chances every day of our life. We don't usually take them, but they're there for the taking.~ Andrew M. Greeley

Hassan was kissing his 'house' upon stepping into our flat.Yes we all miss this little abode although it was just four days almost that we left her.Heee....best macam mana pat luar sana pun,rumah jugak tempat kita bersyiok sendiri kan.Alhamdulillah for us staying alive and kicking thru those days being away till our return.

Ada satu macam energy baru bila sampai kerumah...positive that is.Vacation is a healthy thing so sesekali gini macam memang perlu sebab nak sort of barukan diri.Hopefully something productive will come out from all that rest and relax.

To and back was smooth sailing alhamdulillah.We love travelling on weekdays when having to go thru the immigration.The short break was the same like we had before.Only to go out when we had our meals.A mall closeby which is quite new is just a stone's throw.Nice mall but I prefer Jusco Aeon anytime.The new mall (KSL) is almost like Angsana but I noticed most retailers there were Chinese owned...selling all the kawaii stuff,clothes and such.They were super friendly as well!I was telling husband how these people simply know how to amik hati kita,being jovial and all...tumpang tanya mana money changer pun dia taruk dulu apa dia pegang and directed me more than what I asked...baik sangat kan!Budak2 cina muda2 lagi...Memang I admire orang2 cina berniaga ni....ceria and ramah sangat.Beli baju angry bird untuk budak2 ni,amoi amoi layan kita dengan hepi sekali,siap ketawa2....lahaii amoi..wa cayang sama lu,lu tau...

Thru the days were r n r in the room,pool,outside mealtime,room again...we hardly merayap2 like that...traffic was heavy by pm.So we rather stay indoors,enjoy the aircon n tv and kuaci burung :))) Snacks in abundance was a must for hungry kids and adults :)) gitu jer...simple simple pleasures.Syioknyer...alhamdulillah.

Pictures tak banyak...will share bila rajin ok.Back to routine with renewed energy insya'Allah....have a great week !

Scoot!

2011-12-02T12:56:00.003+08:00

Enjoy your own life without comparing it with that of another. Marquis De Condorcet

After their prayers,we'll scoot our way to JB for a short rest n relax getaway....putting up in in a place we almost claim as our vacation home...hahah..someone told me "takde tempat lain,asik situ ajer"...tengok tempat tengok poket,kalau sama padan walaupun tempat situ situ jugak...we donch mainn...:))) I think a few can guess where already as I blogged about it before.No beach,nothing scenic,not much to claim as postcard like panorama.

Despite,we love it :)

Heee...will be there till Monday.Insya'Allah.The boys as usual very very excited since last night...we told them as a surprise :)) Sorrylah boys,we go mana we mampu ok...as long as got pool,happy kan.Glad they dun say anything like jelak already or such.Syukur ok :)

Won't be online thru those days which I am going to miss but the company will not shortchange me anything insyaAllah....

Praying for a safe journey stay and return..amin.To my readers and special stalkers I very sayanggg....enjoy your weekends ya!

Maaf zahir batin and take care all.Bless Friday!

Peringatan untuk Blogger macam saya :|

2011-11-30T09:04:00.001+08:00

Semoga Allah swt ampuni dosa2 kita dan beri peringatan sekiranya terdetik dalam hati...amin ya Rabb..

Tolong tergur kita ya para pembaca disayangi sekiranya pernah ada atau selalu ada begini di post post kita...please ya.Jazakillahu Khairan...

We are 14 years of kpak bing bing today alhamdulillah :)

2011-11-29T10:01:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulillah,we are 14 today ♥ Our imperfection of sorts play a part to become what why how we are all these years and I can never thank Allah swt enough for this kismet.We'll continue to float with our wonderful buoys ;) and stay funny and crazy best friends in love together yepp,insya'Allah.May Allah swt bless us with many more years of joy,peace and His redha..amin.

Love him everyday ♥

Joy is not in things; it is in us. ~ Richard Wagner

Read Sri...read well :P

2011-11-26T08:33:00.000+08:00

When our children are crying for us, our spouses irritated with us and everyone complaining about us whilst we are busy clicking away on our mobiles, iPhones, Blackberrys, iPads, Tablets, laptops or computers etc then we should know that we are overdoing it. We must draw a line and have limits, prioritise and fulfil our duties, relate well with those we live with before those in the cyber world and be strict with ourselves in this regard. It is very easy to lose track of time, or ignore our own children, spouses and family members without realising what pain we are causing them by wasting time on such things. Some people jump at the beep of their devices to respond at any time of the day or night as though the world would come to an end if they didn't, whilst others smile and laugh more with their devices than the real people living with them. Some have turned the clocks upside down by staying awake most of the night clicking away and then sleeping during the day. Unlimited obsession with such devices or the internet can easily break up otherwise good homes and lead children onto the wrong path. Let's all ask ourselves if we are guilty and then make sure we place controls on ourselves.

Mufti Ismail Menk

This is a wow reminder that does hit the button.My button.

I reflect the period of my online relationship.Not sure but I think am okay.Less is good.

And itching to de activate *again :PP* there few days back but prolly the itch was not strong enough.

And this came thru this morning.The itch gets stronger.I am counting down quietly.

That day insya'Allah but not here.This blog is my quiet comfort and calming space.Insya'Allah.

The mufti's message today sort of affirms my plan.A message it is.

Yes I came and went like that.Due to a request I could not turn down as it was a need than a want.

I was reluctant to re activate it.Cut the story short,it was quite worthwhile much later.Alhamdulillah,

But then that 'thing' came back....I browsed thru.I observed my pace.A big 'tsk!'

It hit me and today,harder.Ok I told myself.

Moving on.....my twitter is back.Not diligently but,oklah it is there.

Ni tak malu sikit but to get in touch n manja2...it is sanguinesri...*menyampah tak?* So,gitulah...

Not much..blogging here is still my favourite thing to do.

Last but not least....

SALAM MAAL HIJRAH 1433!HAVE A GREAT NEW BEGINNING AND GREAT PLANS AND HIJRAH AHEAD!

MAAF ZAHIR BATIN AND PRODUCTIVE NEW YEAR TO ALL WITH MUCH LOVE :)

Perhaps it is good to have a beautiful mind, but an even greater gift is to discover a beautiful heart.~ John Nash (A Beautiful Mind)

2011-11-23T12:48:00.000+08:00

A beautiful heart is acceptance in situations when we can actually hate detest avenge jealous humiliate arrogant ostentatious.My imperfect two cents.

And also we can have a beautiful heart on selective periods too and Allah swt as witness to silently humble beautiful hearts.

Shh that and its beautifully wonderful.

We can and if think we can't must use force.

As for myself,yet... yet...yet...because I am trying to heal an unforgettable.Letting go is no ABC with that one.

Force is good.

Insya'Allah.

Have a beautiful day mind heart and meeting them as well.

When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth ~ ktfrmtn

2011-11-22T10:19:00.001+08:00

Beautiful isnt it....Thankful arent we...Luxurious this is :)

A man cannot be comfortable without his own approval...Mark Twain

2011-11-18T09:17:00.004+08:00

Let's be comfy with ourselves,our families,our home,our property,our lives,our rizk etc etc....Big and Small.

Anyways those are not ours actually.We are all borrowers,not owners.

Sharing this wonderful video on how to interact,communicate and more with children the way our Prophet saw did....insya'Allah.Have a blessed Friday and let's do Al Kahfi yepp!

May Allah bless and please forgive me...

ps:Mute the IKIM radio in the side bar in order to listen and enjoy this...truly,do enjoy this.

May Allah bless Sri (Ummu Umar) for sharing this video.Amin.

Let not children know this...

2011-11-17T10:09:00.002+08:00

We were in the lift with our neighbours who have school going children themselves.Casual talked and all,and the inevitable school hols is coming soon topic came up.

"Wa...exam over already.School holidays coming soon ya!" I started.

"Yalor...headache lah...haiyahhhh" the mummy exclaimed.

"Wa..like exam for mummy this time ha??" I joked.

This is quite a common statement each time the school hols is nearing and arrived.

Sometimes it is said in jest,sometimes it is said in fury

What is so horrible having the school holidays and children being at home?

And what makes any parents think it is okay to say all that expressively infront of their children?What would the children think and feel? They are not welcome in their own home? They are trouble makers of the season? What would these children feel if they knew and heard and all? One can always say it is just casual talk but I truly believe children at such tender age believe what they hear especially from their own parents....the protector,supporter,caregiver and whatnots.

Kesian aper, kan???

Yes I do understand that we have to deal whatever moments that we have to referee the kids now and then but that does not justify any parents to sigh and whine about school holidays being the worst period in their lives.....? They are our children! It is natural to parent them when they are in the mode of differences and all.It is a parenting thing when we have to think and plan what to do with them during these months.It should be a joy.It should not be a headache....for all we know we do not have to plan anything at all as sometimes children do have their own stuff in mind and would prefer to do things they love without us having to brainstorm anything for them.

I have heard a couple of stuff these few days prior to school hols.Whiny words aplenty than any welcoming or happy phrases.Of course the tiresome part is natural and usual but just dont let the children know in a way that they are the burden that 'cause' us to feel tired and...angry.

Sorry for being emotional about this but I am so turned off by those who see school holidays as a big huge burden on them instead of taking advantage of the ample days of bonding,playing,getting in touch with their interests,just chatting and all.Yes it could be a tiring thing but we have to compromise with them...let them in the know that mommy needs some quiet time but not pushing them away and wishing the holidays faster be over and such.

Sadlah....I had my experience of days where,oh sri ada kat rumah,takpe taruk jer kat rumah dia anak2 dia kan suka main dengan polan....oh taruk jer kat rumah sini,sini ada geng...(sebab mak bapak nak holiday sans budak2)....abih, mak sansen tak perlu rehat?

I may sound very selfish here but over the years,I have experienced this each time ada school holidays.Kadang2 tengah rasa kurang sihat atau nak berehat dgn anak2 pun tak amik kisah.Taruk jugak sini.Bukan tak boleh main2 dgn my boys....they are most welcome but to put them here without further notice and whatnots...tak best kan.Paling boring bila ada parents away n their kids tak ikut , n ask where their kids go out to (yes,we were expected to bring their kids out without needing for them to ask :P) and when we told oh we went here...and we got a "ha??? pergi situ ajer??....wahliaooo...ajerrr dia kata? thank you jangan harap lah...its like we owe them something gitu...goodness.I was so angry masa tu.I really think that was so rude. At one time hantar sebab parent nak quiet time...and as if we do not need it at all.

My children love company.I welcome children to my home anytime but with advanced notice please.Kalau tak mampu advanced notice,you sit with me and watch the kids play together.Kalau nak babysit,fine I am okay...but let me know and not via someone else so that someone else will pass his her message to me and take for granted I will take care as I would not reject.This is adab kan.

Oklah sorry but my sentiments lah.I welcome playdates with mummies along...this is my favourite thing to do and I had that a few with dear dlumiere n kids for eg.

So let's welcome the children to be with us during the hols.They are looking forward to the holidays and we must welcome them as well.Buat n layan mana mampu and let them know when we need our rest and they'll be quieter insya'Allah.Kalau boleh dont let them hear us sighing and complaining about the school holidays n them being at home more than before.They deserve the attention.

Please forgive me if there is any distasteful remarks from my post today.I feel strongly for children and they deserve the best what we can afford to.They are not someone optional to have,they are our responsibilities.

Have a great hols and enjoy the companies!!

Yahooo cuti nak mai!

2011-11-15T10:17:00.001+08:00

Insya'Allah Thursday ni last day untuk P3 anaks cum Prize Giving Day.Friday tak involve as it is Honours Day for the upper Ps so Friday dah boleh horay horay...heheh..actually lepas last paper tu pun dah memang hooray...mak dia lagi2.Masa exam fever weeks tu,kalau petang2,strictly ikut time,pukul berapa bukak buku n workbooks n what nots.Kejap je gitu....haaaa..lepas tu gi lah horey situ sebulan lebih.Horey pun kena ber pada pada hor.

Mak Abah are extremely happy upon going thru their SA2 results recently.Alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulillah.They progressed quite a bit this time alhamdulillah.It is a bonus for them as Effort is what we count most on the whole.Signed their report books last night with much gratitude.Allah swt makes this possible.And Haris,their best friend did so well too and deserves an award for general progress!I was so happy to know about it as I do have a soft spot for him.Texted his mom to congratulate and I can imagine how sejuk her tummy can be upon knowing kan! I did post about this Haris boy who has an amazing humility that can put adults to shame? He is one wonderful boy who is so unassuming,polite and caring...and that is why I was so elated when my boys told he'll get that award nanti :) Husain dapat best conduct award n Hassan,we award him for being the best brother n supporter :) So happy to know their friends did well on the whole and most of them going to the same class next year....but Husain might be located in a different one.

We do feel happy for his tentative location(altho it is written in his report book but he told it was not confirmed yet....??) but there is a mixed feeling in husband and I upon reading his P4 class there.If confirmed that he would be in that class,we hope he does not have to go thru what he went thru in P2....it was quite a year for him.I had to counsel him on and off then....affected by this group of 'snooties' in that class,....:PP But eversince, he had become quite resilient gradually...insya'Allah.And he is sooo happy in his P3 as his classmates(bro dia pun pat situ kan..) are of his 'frequency' and the teacher extremely wonderful,friendly and very positive :) My boys love her so much.Hari ni Husain brings a bouquet of paper tulips he made, with a beautiful message for his form teacher.Hassan did a cute card for her.She deserves them.Hope they'll get a teacher who is as good,tak sama tak pe asal ada adab n ikhlas nak ajar kind that pupils would look up and love for...Amin.

P4,hmmmm.....can't wait to lay my hands on the textbooks.I would normally be the first person to browse thru them.Terpaksa kiasu sikit sebab mak dialah principal teacher vice principal dalam satu....watak2 lain belum lagi :PPP For now kasi budak relax,main main....hehhh :)) Cuti ni pun tak kemana sangat,JB juga ada pigiiii....insya'Allah.Prolly spend 3 nites in our fave hotel yg affordable dgn poket nih...heee.Star pun tak berapa mana muai pon tapi yg penting tukar angin and dapat bilik luas...crystal crown lah,mana lagi...heee.Got to know very close to it ada mall baru...n ada JCo donuts arr! Heee...

Oklah...have a great week and enjoy :)

Khalil Gibran...

2011-11-12T20:08:00.000+08:00

Your living is determined not so much by what life brings to you as by the attitude you bring to life; not so much by what happens to you as by the way your mind looks at what happens.

...like quickly putting on a special positivity-goggles replacing my spectacles before I start to feel tight inside about stuff : /

Unconditional Love comes from.....

2011-11-08T17:37:00.003+08:00

Mama,Late Papa,Husband,Sons and fellow beings I may know or not.

It was indeed a very very very emotional noon.

I had a good talk with my mama,apologising profusely for not sure what but I just needed to apologise.

We were on the phone,then when she heard my voice shaking,she said she is coming over asap.

While waiting for her to come,I was crying like a 3 year old.

Really,I tried to point at what and which part that made me cry...probably I miss the mother and daughter moment whilst talking to her on the phone.Her thoughts,my thoughts then I panicked mama when my voice was not there anymore...

When she came over,right at the gate,I welcomed her trying to stay chirpy but could not...I just broke.

She told me it is going to be fine,no need to apologise and told me to calm down and dah takde apa2 lah...

I hugged her and told her I love her and apologise again...she said she felt nothing and absolutely nothing to apologise for...

And I was embarrassed by it all.I have always asked for apology each time I had to leave for home after my visit or left each other after a meet and vice versa..but this time I was hotter than serious about apologising.

Very very gembenggg...

Anyways,I felt light rightafter,not saying I am all clean n pure for being a good child or things like that.not just yet...I can never repay anything for the sacrifices my mama n papa had done for me since borned...never ever...

Ya Allah...it was quite overwhelming and my mama reminded me not to be like this again...sedih2 gini macam...nak pms tak jugak...sensitippp tahap maxima uber and whatnots agaknyer...

My gratitude to Allah swt for loaning me my ever forgiving n forgetting mama,papa,very beloved husband cum best friend,empathising and understanding sons.

Allah swt created all things Wonderful and Allah made them....Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah.

I am still feeling dizzy what happened just now.And I love my mama even more.May the roles of my being a wife,daughter,mother and a citizen be rewarded unto her and papa as well....amin.May whatever steps, decisions, speech ,aurat and more I apply be of benefit for them too...amin.

I hope my sons would be thoughtful like this too...wallahua'lam.

May Allah swt bless me and husband with knowledge,ideas,righteous principles and more to be more capable teachers unto our children...amin.

Very emo now...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA SEMUAA....!

2011-11-04T09:39:00.000+08:00

Maaf Zahir Batin dari Kak Sri pada semua pembaca.Mari kita renungkan apa erti korban selain hari korban lembu kambing dan binatang2 lain untuk diagihkan.

Semoga kita semua dalam Redha Nya...amin.

Have a fantastic long weekends!

Finito...

2011-11-03T10:19:00.000+08:00

When you are offended at any man's fault, turn to yourself and study your own failings. Then you will forget your anger. ~Epictetus

Yalorr...correct.If I could carry my own mirror or innovate my tudung that can hold a mirror just below the awning area,that would be good.Just to take a look at my own face how I would look like when upset over the little things.Then notice how unpleasant the muscles contorted on the face and embarrassed by it.Ugly.So think pleasant....n remember Mr Epictetus quote.

Sum it up,offended but do not dwell...if not fall in the well :P (trying to rhyme funny :P)

Maafkanlah..

That is just an imagination,that shudders me enough.I won't wear tudung cum mirror holder anywhere needless to say.

No am not upset with anyone at this moment,...insya'Allah but a good prep for self this quote in case I fall into the trap of 'apa seyy dek ni!' moment.

Am in a very positive and good mood insya'Allah...apalagi..sebab exam dah habis..hehehhehe.

Lega naaa rasanya.Yesterday was the first lega and relax for us threesome after weeks of exam preps, in the blissful afternoon.The kids got to play online games again and mak,sebab pagi dah masak semua,relax with my Anis n phone n catch 40winks...alhamdulillah...simple but pleasure sgt...syukur nikmat.So officially it is 'everyday is Sunday' starting then.Also a very good start to focus on the ultimate....my bad.It should not be done only when got spare time.Managed to squeeze that in between revisions though...alhamdulillah.Now since exam is over....ample lah insya'Allah.

The boys brought good news yesterday right in front of the gate....belum masuk rumah lagi pun.Ok,we'll see the following ones.Alhamdulillah for effort.Changed and ate lunch and asked if they could play online games.So a yes to that and very suka di muka...ya lah..tahan napsu main kejap beberapa minggu kan....so semalam very happy mood mood.Then did paper tulips for nenek's bday katanya.Very engrossed sampai malam buat byk2...now sitting in a glass vase on a cabinet.Prolly resume the origami today.

Nice.Ok better hit the kitchen...nak masak daging kicap.Add some iron in me...these few days rasa drowsy and crave for ice chips...read somehwere if that happens my blood count on the low...so every week cuba masak daging lembu.

Have a good Thursday...happy mood to all :)

There is a sufficiency in the world for man's need but not for man's greed. Mohandas Ghandi.

2011-11-01T13:19:00.000+08:00

Need...Necessity

Want...lagi fun

Greed...aiyoyo semua kaut kasi sama bapak (Ahmad Albab movie :))

Nauzubillah for the 3rd....and sometimes the second.(nak kasi sedap hati gitu hence,sometimes dia kat situ :P )

Yey yey besok last day exam...yey yey...and I can breathe easier.Nak tak nak,nervous2 tu mmg muncul walaupun tak nak berapa nervous.

After tomorrow....mood hooray.Result? tu belakang cerita. Kasi amik napasss dulu.Bila da dpt result...wajah2 mood di gate pintu can tell all even tho sebelum masuk rumah.Itu lah result tercepat biasanya dapat dibaca...hehehhehe.Ya mak kalau boleh,you all dah abis buat exam,kalo boleh bilang teacher takpelah,result teacher nak simpan pun boleh tak payah bawah balik,bukan tak confident ke apa....memang mak abah nak celebrate lebih on Effort....the one week plus effort you all dah buat...no tv, no compie,no no no many no-s n you all effort those big n the countless worksheet to practice on.Thank you for sabaring....

Insya'Allah....semua ok ok belaka ok.

Today mother tongue...besok science.Mak ada sikit weak pasal nak ajar science tapi takpe...mana mampu ok.Teacher pun da ajar aperr..

Oklah...kejap lagik budak2 dah balik...depan gate tu jugak nanti dgr berita terkini tang paper ari ni..insya'Allah.

1 at another,4 back at you....ingat tu,Kak Sri : /

2011-10-25T09:10:00.002+08:00

that is the action of the fore finger pointing at someone,other than ourselves.Notice the the rest of the fingers are pointing back at us.

Positively,it is a symbolic action of being giving to one,you get back more than what you gave.

Negatively,we point a fault at one,more will point at us back reminding us about our own weakness,whether we deny it or not.

So best,don't point.Anyways,our parents already taught us not to point as it is rude ;P

Like a quote...It is fine to feel good about ourselves as long as we remember that there are always better others.

Muhasabah diri hari hari...kisah pasal diri sendiri.Jangan fikir orang lain yg so called famous dengan kesalahan kesalahan,mereka tak boleh ubah.Hidayah hak Allah swt.Bila bila Allah boleh turnkan pada mereka dan buat mereka ubah.Amin.Kita ni yang dah 'dapat hidayah'....bila kita 'start' ajer gitu gitu,boleh kena tarik balik bila bila....

Thing is,kita takde kuasa nak ubah orang melainkan nasihat ikhlas bukan condemn.Lepas tu berserah lah nak ubah ke tak...Rimas bila lalat lalat ngeng ngong ngeng ngong cuba famous kan keburukkan orang lain.Backfire kan lepas tu?

Ni tengah geram sendiri.Tapi kena hati hati...jangan sebab kita geram,kita tersama ikut nak condemn pulak :( No good.

So instead of pointing forefinger kita suka suka....lebih baik spread the fingers out side by side,susun rapi rapi dan memberi melalui doa atau sedekah.Insya'Allah.

Jom buat baik banyak banyak hari ini....jommmmmmm!

Maaf zahir batin dan happy happy pat semua orang k!

It is better to be hurt by a hypocrite than to feel regret for accusing someone wrongly.

There is so much in nothing much.

2011-10-24T09:46:00.002+08:00

The boys are having their math test today,no..rather a continuation where they left last Friday due to shortage of time,so teacher told the class that Monday all will resume to complete it in some minutes time.

One of my twins expressed his worry that he might not be able to finish it on time as he has four more questions to go.So many what ifs...

I feel for him.I would feel the same too.Anyways,trying my best matteroffactly tone,padahal gelabah nak carik kata2 motivasi yg sesuai...:PP but yeah,told him once he gets his paper,black out everything else in the classroom and get on with it immediately.No distractions.(hopefully).Map out his own interpretation of the math story and start the first step of 4 steps as soon...senang jer cakap kan but yes,P3 math needs the students to read understand and study the sentences well...very well...and,needless to say,they need time to think..sometimes I do wish the length of time can change...longer by some minutes because thinking does takes time.Can't rush that.

Oh well...anyways,he was not sure if he could finish all.So assured him that whatever he could finish,finish it well...even though it is going to be just one question only during that whole time.Kept telling him he could do it...then argued about the brief minutes he should cope.Well,bilang dia...kalau teacher dah cakap time's up...dahhhh...times up.Passap ajer...it is okay.Tu namanya you have done your best.Dah...tak pe.

He was not sure but there was calmness in his face than before.Like any positive moms unto their children..I kept telling him he can do it...he can do it and told him to repeat this himself..I can do it.Habis tak habis itu lain cerita as in....what happens,happens.Of course lah I hope he could finish all kan...but realistically,I have to be more udnerstanding and empathising insya'Allah. And ended our discussion telling him not to create a failure when it has not happened yet.And guess what,I was actually telling this to myself also in the same breathe.I am like that sometimes...worry.Ok..most times than sometimes :P

So he went to bed happy because he had expressed himself like that.Such tests should not be a barrier from being happy and enjoy life.Exam ke apa ke...hmmm..memang lah stressful period kan.Tapi rohani budak2 kecik ni yang kena jaga...kadang2 terlepas pandang.So kena ada balance.After their revision hours in the weekends,dropped the books and played online games and to the playground.

Made dorayaki or doriyaki gitulah bunyi nyer semalam.Because it is easy :))) and yummy also.Spread the pancakes with peanut butter and chocolate..the kids wanted choc chips in the batter so did that.I really believe that one cecah dengan sambal tumis ikan bilis also nice...kenyal2 and lemak2.Another tea treat idea this one..as long as senang n tak guna mesen..hahahha..pemalas betul aku ni :PP

Ok,sotong nak masak kari,selar nak goreng,taugey nak goreng n sop telor n carrot for the soup-fan twins :) Lupa lah nak beli fishball semalam..budak2 suka tu..takpe,apa ada pakai dulu.Cerewets not..

Alermek..almost lupa buat hombekk.Better start fishing that piece out.I am talking about the Manner Makeover for Wives n to BE-s workshop.Wives and to be-s who are reading this,do sign up for this workshop if there would be another season of it.Do sign up okay.Sangat touching,sangat bukak mata besar besar facts dan berbagai bagai sangat.Yang tengah dilamun cinta muda mudi pon bagussssss sangat utk dengar apa yang boleh n tak boleh dalam masa ombakkan cinta ni...heeee.Yang pasti,before you leave the class,you would feel more appreciative for you spouse from the smallest to the biggest detail....best sangat so kalau ada webinar of this or classes overseas ke apa gitu...sign up ok!Chap jempol :))

Ok,better make my way away from this lappie....Have a great Monday n maaf zahir batin :)

Starry Starry Night....

2011-10-22T09:26:00.000+08:00

When a wife has a good husband it is easily seen in her face. (Johann Wolfgang Von Goethe)

There is no more lovely, friendly, and charming relationship, communion, or company than a good marriage. (Martin Luther)

Simply touchingly real session ♥ Love it so much and I love him more ♥

Eh....Friday already?

2011-10-21T09:33:00.000+08:00

I can never stop pondering on the days go by in a whizz...I think I have mentioned my sentiments about it quite a number of times here :)) But,gitulah...tap tup tap tup,e'ehh..Jumaat lagi.

After wholesome days with the boys,this morning is silence,not dead but calming one.Needless to say,I do miss them a whole lot.We whispered I miss yous as we hugged tightly and wished them all the best this morning just before they left for school.Today they're having listening compre Eng n MT.Insya'Allah...may they do their best.Amin.

Frankly I do not know what to expect this time with regards to SA2.Usaha doa tawakkal...insya'Allah.

Am listening to IKIM fm right now as I am typing this.Ustazah NorHafizah Musa discussing about akidah.She catches my attention quite recently,the flow in her words,simple but direct,calming but clear.And the simplicity in her image.Alhamdulillah for the Raudhah channel we get by chance here.Memang sejukkkkk sangat tengok dia kat tv and her smooth voice that is easy to absorb what she delivers.Alhamdulillah.

Another session tonight insya'Allah....looking forward to it.Have a blessed Friday all and happy weekends also!

We simply have to persevere in keeping our souls Clean because Allah swt keeps Showering us with His blessings :|

2011-10-16T14:04:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah...and Nauzubillah for the traps and whispers from the no goods.

An often reminder by an inspiring speaker "If the desire to please people in this World outweighs the desire to please Allah swt..that's where most stress reasons can come from."

Perseverence is key....but it is not that easy as we see hear people everyday be at online and offline.But it must be done.

May Allah swt guide us all.....

Ramai manusia ketika hidup di dunia tidur bila mati baru tersedar - Saidina Ali ra

2011-10-15T09:09:00.000+08:00

Hadoiiiii!!!! *golekss*

That is a good one.

"Many are asleep in this World , awoken when Dead " bluntly translated.I am sure there is a better version than this one.

Taken from Dr Muhaya's fb via IKIMfm segment with Ustaz Pahrol.What a greet on a Saturday morning...

Great reminder all the same,insya'Allah.Banyak ber ton ton lagi nak kena asah....belum tentu dah cukup bila sampai ajal : (

Wallahua'lam.

Anyways...great night last night.Alhamdulillah....the gusto and energy is still there probably more.I love it!

Addictive and wanting more...syioknyer kalau dapat stretch to 4 or 5 weeks ker :PPP Ok...mesti syukur walaupun kan.

Can't wait for the next one....kasi asah.

Great Saturday to all......we are still in the revision mode.Anyways,we will take a break and chill somewhere all the same.Insya'Allah.

Maaf zahir batin to all...have a productive weekends!

Decisions become easier when your will to please God outweighs your will to please the world. ~Anso Coetzer (quotegarden)

2011-10-14T11:00:00.000+08:00

Typo and corrected :P

2011-10-13T23:11:00.000+08:00

Gratitude is an art of painting an adversity into a lovely picture ~ Kak Sri

2011-10-12T11:15:00.004+08:00

MasyaAllah...

I google searched the quote above.And the results surprised me.It is one of my few quotes that I submitted in a quote contest.No prizes for winning lah..And this one did it alhamdulillah.

And this morning,I received an email from a stranger,a nurse from a country in the west,asking how she should pronounce Kak Sri as she wants to use the quote for a cancer talk this Friday and wants to make sure she says my name right.

It was a pleasant surprise indeed.So did my best to ease her.Insya'Allah.

I am happy that something so small as this does mean a lot to others.I totally do not expect this,especially when I did the search I mentioned earlier.May Allah help those in adversities to see them in a positive light..amin.We all go thru adverisities insya'Allah...ease comes with them always...amin.We just have to train our eyes and heart that it is all good as good comes from Allah.Practice Husnuzon yepp.

Alhamdulillah,perky Wednesday...kids having compo and karangan exams today...Oral tomorrow.Hope they'll do well at their best..amin.

May ALLAH bless and maaf zahir batin...

Don't go around saying the world owes you a living. The world owes you nothing. It was here first..Mark Twain

2011-10-11T22:36:00.001+08:00

Here we go again...the SA...SA2.

It is their MT n Eng Paper 1s tomorrow.Hoping they'll do well,their best.

It is going to be quite a stretch of dates.Well,positively,it is quite a good spacing in between subjects.

And of course..I can't help rasa kesian kat my anaks....tak tau kenapa,but..kesian lah..just because.

They are in Zeeland right now...and each time that happens,I feel so much more in love with them,the kesian moment starts and guilty filled heart of mine as I think I have not done enough for them for the day...to make them happy children.Well...thanks to exam week.It had been practice practice practice.

Takpe lah...susah susah sekarang.Nanti semua dah habis...pergi lah horey sana...

The twins make plans for the school hols already...inviting Bryan Shan n his brother to come over to play.Told them twice a week is fine :) Well...most times,their Bryan friend would just come over unannounced and would sort of suka suka go home and hours later come back to play n suka suka go home again...Betul innocent.He is a fine boy....chatty sangat,orang tak tanya or jawab strettt ajer bual....good that he is well behaved despite him being chatty.Makcik tak larat kalau nak suruh layan chat awak ek..

Today is rather fulfilling...alhamdulillah.Hope things will roll very well from where it started...insya'Allah.Good stuff.

Nothing much else....have a good night and give the last gift to everyone each time before you retire....forgive everyone yepp.And insya'Allah,we'll be forgiven in return...amin.Forgive me so...

Yawn....illa liqo!

I have learnt silence from the talkative, toleration from the intolerant, and kindness from the unkind; yet strange, I am ungrateful to these teachers.

2011-10-08T15:47:00.000+08:00

Quote by Khalil Gibran,that hit me like a brick as I ponder about it.

We might be one AND the other as well (nauzubillah).

Selagi kita belum mati,selagi itu masih ada peluang untuk berubah.

Berubah untuk lebih baik,hanya kerana Allah s.w.t..terasa nak ubah, buat cepat cepat.

"Jangan tunggu lama2...fikir lama2..nanti dah takde peluangg" ... sempat nak ber sweet charity ek :P

Semoga kita semua di rahmati Allah seumur hidup kita hingga ke akhir hayat...amin.Mari budayakan maaf memaafi...

Maaf zahir batin kepada semua.

A is for Apple

2011-10-06T13:57:00.000+08:00

I never own Apple gadgets.What's more using it.But I read the wisdom of Steve Jobs.His views and principles.He worked hard.He succeed hard as well.I remember that inspirational speech he gave in one of America's Universities..

Though I am not a user of any of his products,I do admire the hi tech n fresh ideas Apple always come out with so intelligently.

And I love that apple icon.So simple sleek and clever.

Your stuff benefit many universally,from all backgrounds,race and religion.

Farewell Steve Jobs.

Children....they always top the subject in Forgive and Forget :)

2011-10-06T10:48:00.002+08:00

A very very good read for all parents insya'Allah.

2011-10-05T08:49:00.001+08:00

As usual my breakfast for the soul would be the two different 4sided objects before I proceed to do anything else..the tele and the lappie-wedded-the pc-monitor.

Got this from fb and this is truly insightful for all parents who only want the best relationship with their children needless to say...insya'Allah.

Relax,get a comfortable chair,tea or coffee by your side,keropok if you want and bismillah...

http://www.suhaibwebb.com/relationships/marriage-family/thoughts-on-parenting/

Have a very pleasant read and a great midweek to all...it is a lovely morning..alhamdulillah.

Demi Masa

2011-10-04T10:00:00.003+08:00

(Petikan dari surah al asr..all the same to understand better of the tafsir is best to attend a proper class.)

Demi masa..

Sesungguhnya manusia kerugian

Melainkan...

Yang beriman dan beramal saleh

Demi masa...

Sesungguhnya manusia kerugian

Melainkan...

Nasihat kepada kebenaran dan kesabaran

What moved me to ponder this today was what I heard this morning from an ustaz on tv9 this morning.I might have read or heard this before a few times in my life but this one does create an impact or nudge me there kind of feeling especially today n it's good if this would stick in...probably due to those whom I met last weekend.They linger in my thoughts till this day...I guess it is also a good thing.

Ingat lima perkara,sebelum lima perkara

Sihat sebelum sakit
Muda sebelum tua, kaya sebelum miskin
Lapang sebelum sempit
Hidup sebelum mati

May ALLAH s.w.t guide us thru this life and bless us with a good ending..Amin.

It is a wet day today...alhamdulillah.Time hujan macam ni mesti asik teringat budak budak kat sekolah tengah buat apa...besok ada Amazing Race competition lepas sekolah.Dua dua masuk so they will be home only after 3.Their SA2 is quite late this time unlike the previous years..I don't mind actually,more time to revise kan.And Friday ni pulak holiday..thanks to Nora for filling clueless me why it is being pushed to a later date :) Alhamdulillah ilmu jugak tu.

The din starts this week...from the works of lift upgrading.Tahan ajerlah.....tak bising tak dapat lip baru kan :PP Kesian warga2 tua yg ramai kat Pandan ni sebab estate ni estate lama jugak,so byk golden resident masih panjang umur tinggal di kawasan ni.Hence the lift upgrading that would be so convenient for them...saya pun dah termasuk golden suam suam :)) Category remaja lanjut kot??

:PP

Ok,demi masa,tak nak rugi...insya'Allah.Jadi kena masuk dapur...semua barang dah keluarkan for thawing tapi belum dapat ilham apa2 nak masak apa...biasalah dilemma wanita dok rumah,barang ada..idea belum ada.Ahaks...tapi insya'Allah..tengah potong2 bawang nanti,timbul lah idea nanti.Ok,dah lah....have a good Tuesday all and may Allah bless...amin! Maaf zahir batin.

It had been..

2011-10-03T11:20:00.002+08:00

a heartbreaking weekend.Received a news that my most adored granduncle passed on n went the ziarah yesterday.I called him Yayi Limi..His name is Salimi bin Omar.My paternal late Nyai's youngest brother.The last of siblings to go.

Why is he my most adored.I remember that I did blog about him before here but the older blogspot.He was my late Pa's youngest uncle.And all through the years with Pa when there was a chance to visit Yayi Limi,I noticed Yayi Limi had this certain special attention towards late Pa.That lit up face and eagerness in his expression.My Pa was indeed loved by many....with the kind of soul he had,many would insya'Allah.

Eversince late Pa passed on,Yayi Limi's love for my family still stayed true.This was because,each time if there were a wedding reception of our mutual relatives,he would cry upon seeing us.We would stay by his side for awhile and comfort him while he teared uncontrollably.I don't know but my strong gut tells me each time he would do that,it would be due to his memory of my late Pa.We represent late Pa to him....hence the tears and sadness that was so overwhelming.How do I feel about all that? I would say,glad.Only because those tears means love.

I love my yayi Limi.I remember he would hug me and talked to me more often and I loved it :) His attentiveness was something that I so appreciate because we did not meet often but when that happened,he would just...lit up like that.He was so warm and attentive towards anyone he was with.My mama being a niece in law to him,he treated the same...event though after my late Pa passed on.His children are like him as well...and nyai Munah,his wife....bila kita pandang orang lepas tu hati kita rasa sejuk tenang n nyaman...kita terus sayang dan suka kan..alhamdulillah.And his family is just that....tak lekang senyum dari wajah.May Allah bless the family...amin.And needless to say,Yayi Limi is very much missed....verryyyy.Saw a daughter went all weak while paying the last respect...ya Allah..please give her strength and move her to redha...amin.It is hard...to let go.Especially with someone whom you had loved all your life.Sesungguhnya,keluarga hanya pinjaman.

My yayi Limi.....I will miss your warmth n love for me n my family.You always had that special look on your face each time you saw us.I knew you saw Papa in us.May Allah bless his soul and shower you His Pardon...may you be one of the beloveds to enter His Jannah...amin.Al fatihah..

And insya'Allah...hoping you and Pa,nyai n your siblings get to meet there...amin.

That's life....may Allah bless us all.

Well,tis a good Monday....let's celebrate life with Allah in our hearts and remember death as a guidance to our seeking that righteous path...May Allah swt move us,the children of our fathers to do good for Allah's sake and for the demises' sake...amin.Because our deeds and intention can have a direct impact on them...on my Pa...may what I have been doing,protect his Soul with peace..amin.

Saturday.

2011-10-01T16:15:00.002+08:00

That is how fast time flies whizz zooms and all that supersonic sounds we hear in our lives.

It is October and yes...HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY!

To all...ok young children first under 13...and then baru kitaorang lah ok,mak mak budak bapak bapak budak..kita pun children to our parents aperr..cuma tak payah pegang belon dapat biskut,tu jer :PP

As those with school going children already know,7th October is a school hol.I believe this is the first time that is shifted to a later date.Just like the recent Teacher's Day.Pardon my ignorance but why ha?? Is it due to the already too many in lieu days off that happened on election days?...wallahua'lam.

The children are not aware that today is 'their' day actually..heee.But they remember that next Friday is a school hol...and the following week the final exam starts..jitters.Me..not so,them.Har Har..

Yes the exam fever is quite on.I will try to relax n not let the nervous system make me nervous too much.I am natural like that.Husband and I had a good discussion abou tour kids' progress n learning style...they are different in many aspects n study style is obviously one of them...One is a focus,another is a creative.One is a go getter,another is a cool soldier..meaning battle in calmness that he only knows how.Challenging but interesting this one..heh.

Ok,I do get upset or frantic each time I do feel they are not on enough.Probably it is a boy thing.So we, hub n I talked about the kids' progress and more.Most times trying to understand the different styles they have,behaviours and all.It can be quite tricky to deal something with both at the same time because each is his own person.And I felt so much better and sane after we talked over breakfast yesterday.Tears Love and All...pmsy lah.

Alhamdulillah...Tawakkaltu..Insya'Allah.The engine is on.

Morning we went to NUH to visit a family friend who collapsed suddenly at home about a week ago.Only to find out she had a clot in her right side of her brain.And she n family didnt know it had been in there for sometime,MasyaAllah..Alhamdulillah...last I talked to her when she was only 6 yrs old.And now she is in her early 30s.Still youngish n manja last I remembered her.I was quite broken to see her state.Lying in the bed the position she finds that comfort best.It is an effort.Could not speak,move slowly,tubes...hairless.I asked her if she could remember me,Kak Sri...because like I mentioned,last she saw me,she was in her kiddy years and I was like 11 or 12.She caught my hand and stroked my face unexpectedly..that was when I could not help crying.I should not...I kept telling her she is going to be alright,she is out of icu already,she is looking great despite..she is recovering.Handed her a teddy bear I got from a shop in the same building...her face lit up and she smiled in delight...girl mana tak suka teddy bear,makcik beli ni pun mcm nak simpan sendiri..cute ada ladybug on the nose lagi. :)) Played with the bear's arms and cuddled it...All in her quiet language and she could not speak.I feel for her so so much.

She kept pointing to her neck,cringing n grimacing trying to tell me she has a very sore throat...a doc came to check on her..and waited outside the drawn curtain..when done,she was pointing to a direction and signalled something with her finger in a circular motion..I asked the doc what did that mean?She said the patient had been doing that for quite some time..I looked closer at what was she actually pointing ....there was a clock n the clock is round..."You want us to bring you a clock?You want a clock eh??"....she nodded.Husband told he would text her brother to bring one when he comes later.

Oh Allah..please ease her road to recovery...please gain her strength,patience and confidence again amin.

We left to visit another patient,a relative who is battling hard with cancer in a special unit...forgot what was that.Kissed her and told her to be happy that she is already in the normal ward n recovering.

Another heart wrenching sight.Tubes,mask,and all....actually the doc asked if the family would want to take him home or let him stay in the hospital.That broke my heart a lot.Allah maha mengetahui...the nurse gave morphin to cope with the pain....not sure if that really worked because he was groaning and surged his body on and off after that....in pain.Ya Allah...sangat sedih tapi Allah lebih mengetahui and semoga Allah s.w.t ampunkan segala dosa dosanya,sakit dan penyakit sebagai kaffarah....amin.

As we drove our way to get the kids from madrasah,we were wondering how do we end.Sangat menginsafkan...satu iktibar dan peringatan...bukan harta,kekayaan,duit,rumah,kereta besar yang kita terbayang dan ingat,bila kita rasa sakit dan tenat...Ya Allah...semoga kita sentiasa dalam ingat dan sedar...amin.

May Allah guide us in the righteous path,bless us with wealth of health,make aware to be grateful to Him,steadfast in our acts n ibadah,obedience and move us to live for Allah's sake.Amin.

In my 40s...it is not far.

I am half baked back...

2011-09-29T11:24:00.000+08:00

The lappie n pc are still not up to par perfect...not even close but manageable thanks to my beloved half.He made sure I could open my windows of thoughts and sights right here as usual.As I had said before...sini adalah tempat hooray hooray kita.Being an almost a hardcore sahm/w...internet is a channel to air supply my mind,neurons and improve some aspects of my life.Insya'Allah.And of course the thrills of reading your comments,many or non :))))) Well,frankly sitemeter has been my informer,not so secretly lah,to see if at all anybody reads me for the day..not that I tear or wail my eyes out if nobody does but just a cheap thrill like that...heeee..And eitherways it has been fun checking it...not sure if google reader records subscribers.But anyways...I am so so glad I can do this again..blogging!! My comfort zone for years.Although there is always my fb to fall back on if anything 'happens' :PP..here is where I would holler my deeper thoughts.I am happier here so to speak.But I am glad my faraway not so often meet relatives n cousins are in touch with me via fb.Though I do not inform them to read me here...I'd rather they find me here by chance/destined,no specific reasons but simply that lah.

So,am happy to write here again,ramble and rant as responsibly as possible...not sure if my posts did offend anyone before or probably offending one right now :PP But this is all of me...Very Sri..So Sri :)) So I apologise if any of my posts have triggered any ill feelings.It is kind of hard to use words and express them here aiming to get them correctly perceived alike in every reader.So,maaf zahir batin ok again n again....

Alhamdulillah glad I got to type a full post today.Do have a great weekendsaroundthecorner day...Have a blessed and productive one.Have Allah in our hearts,here,there and everywhere...Salam.

Oh yes..ok i know this is weird to blog here.If you do see me anywhere else it has been thru my hp..will write again when things are healthy gadgetwise.InsyaAllah.

2011-09-23T08:48:00.001+08:00

Can't post anything on blog box so here's telling you my lappie n pc jialak already..miss blogging here n salam all!

2011-09-23T08:46:00.001+08:00

We are not owners but we are borrowers. To Allah we all return.

2011-09-15T10:22:00.000+08:00

In memory of a 6/7 week old who lived briefly in a mommy.

It is hard,it is sad,it is wrenching but this is a test of Redha.

Allah is the Best Planner,the Best Forgiver,the Best Provider..the Best of everything and we are nothing.

May Allah bless the cousins I heart with loads of patience,strength and ease to Redha everything that He wills ....amin.

Husnuzon All The Way...

I guess it is fine to feel good about ourselves as long as we remember that there are better others.

2011-09-14T10:53:00.001+08:00

Syukuri nikmat Allah beri pada kita dan syukurilah juga nikmat Allah beri pada orang lain.Alhamdulillah... (Muqaddimah tv9)

2011-09-14T10:52:00.002+08:00

A 'hen baogui'...with loads of love n respect :)

2011-09-12T09:15:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulillah....it is on insya'Allah.

What I thought would not be possible has turned almost possible.

Thank You so much Allah for this stage of ease.

And his redha is Your Redha too.

I love you, husband :)

It is for Allah's sake and you, insya'Allah :)

Happy as a lark...meantime,bonus hap hap happy Monday,Mak Lyn is coming wheeeeeee!!!

Late Pa...in every face that I see here.I love them all...

2011-09-11T08:25:00.000+08:00

Handsome Pretty Pristine...

And then....zany hilarious candid love...

There is something somewhere that you cannot have for all the things you already have.

2011-09-10T08:47:00.000+08:00

And what I do not have is a have that I must look and see beyond I thought I do not have....

Alhamdulillah :)

Children are our silent auditors.They do not have to say anything about us but we know what we hope to see in them through us.

2011-09-07T08:46:00.001+08:00

The house is not quiet anymore but the home is complete again :)

2011-09-06T22:35:00.001+08:00

Mak Abah are so happy you boys are home because...you are.

When we rolled our eyes to have to listen to the familiar din,abah told the din is what we need to feel everyday.

Mak agrees very much with tolerance in tact.

Mak Abah talked and discussed about you guys in every silent moment because that was when we were missing you really hard and ached.

Mak felt guilty at times when I did that..missing you, aching for you..too often.You know why??

Because my love for you cannot overwhelm the love I must have for Allah s.w.t and Rasulullah s.a.w..

My first loves have to be First and those days were challenging to do just that..*May Allah s.w.t forgive me..amin*

And we are so happy you made it well in the camp.You had tried your hardest best to do the obligatories although not all.You did not get to do them at all the first time.You braved yourselves to ask this time.Alhamdulillah.

I remember we prayed hard that they would understand and ease you to do what you must do.

And one Venture understood.At least one of them understood.

And did you say he was only a teen...a secondary school student?...and he understood?

MasyaAllah...Alhamdulillah...I will try to find out his name to thank him and I will also try to find out the other much much senior's name to feedback and make him understand why he should respect instead of ignoring your requests, deliberately : /

Forgive him anyways k.

We are very proud of you boys.Surviving the discomfort,mosquito bites,spiders crawling in your sleepingbag,the heat,the tough games,the campfire 'song n chant' to something more right instead :PP..and more.

Best of all....we appreciate one another even more than before.We feel it in your hugs and speech today.

We're home :)

You see much more of your children once they leave home. ~Lucille Ball (quotegarden)

2011-09-06T08:40:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah Tuesday is here again and the kids will be back pretty soon!Azillionyeyyyyss!!

And am looking forward to Dr M's recorded seminar...a nicee Tuesday indeed insya'Allah.

Ya Allah...how much I miss the boys deeply.Husband n I could not help ourselves expressing our miss n yearn for the boys like that.

In the same breath,we enjoy each other's company and quiet date in our very own home as well....we treated ourselves with borrowed dvds of slumdog millionaire n half way of benjamin button..ini slow la cita dia or probably both of us were too sleepy for such deep movie.

Hassan Husain,mak abah truly looking forward to have you in our arms and listen to all that you're going to tell......we are really happy you all have been making it there,ulu2 punya tempat,close to nature n independance applied.No emergency calls equals to nothing worrisome kan :PP

Husband took leave for the boys and I have little surprises laid on their single beds as a welcome home gifts.

I thank Allah for this blooming love and care for one another.Alhamdulillah....

Counting down the hours to pick them at school :)

Enjoy your kids readers...maaf zahir batin.

Off they went...*Warning...quite a mushy post to the point of..errr..annoying?"

2011-09-04T22:27:00.000+08:00

to Sarimbun Scouts Campsite...and at this time of typing,husband and I have been feeling a major missing part in our hearts.Sounds bit too mushy but that is what is all about eversince the kids were off to their second scouts camping trip for 2nites.

This feeling we are having is the kind that is gappy,hollow,aching portion that we helpless cannot help it...I know I said this before but I am saying this again right here...The only time we are separated is only when mak abah has to go for seminars or any very important occasions that do not require children to come and a few failed dates (reason later) :PP...Other than that,they have been with us anywhere everywhere we go,here,near n far.Eversince they were borned,there has been no such thing as 'make sure we must date once a while and leave the children, to strengthen our relationship' thingy that many many times husbands and wives are advised to do...We are not anti-ing this idea but it is just that,our relationship,love,husband n wife strength and all that jazz,is strengthened with the born of our twin boys thereafter.No less...alhamdulillah.It has always been our mutual choice to bring them along wherever we go.

A couple of years back,when the kids were much younger,we tried to celebrate our wedding anniversary/date without them...and guess what,we ended up missing them,talking about them all those while and agreed to quickly get home and get them back in our arms....not an ideal celebration but we cannot lie what our hearts and feeling told us to do....and what a great relief when we got them back.We realised,they are our love for each other....alhamdulillah.I thank Allah s.w.t for making us do like so each time....I do not know for sure if the kids would love to come along with us as they grow older for our celebrations and such but I am quietly hopeful about it and if otherwise understandably,I would know and accept their preference :))) Children grow,making choices and deserve respect.But it is always nice to have them with us at their own preference isnt it...well that aside,what matters is the present.

So every separation is very hard for us but we didnt show it.The kids showed their's actually repeating i miss yous days prior to the camping trip.I told them we feel likewise no less but at the same time we do feel happy for this opportunity they are getting from the school.A bit apprehensive initially as they might be feeling nervous as they were not sure what to expect there at Sarimbun camp....well,generally they were briefed but other than that...I do not have much idea myself whats their itinerary would be like.A huge TAWAKKAL has to have in our hearts and mind.May Allah protect them..amin.The first camp was not in this same venue...it was a school in choa chu kang amongst the hdb flats.But Sarimbun campsite is wayyyyyy at the edge of Singapore...by the waters and possibly overlooking Johor Straits according to map.Wayyyy.....ulu2 sana lalu....Mini Urban lah.

Oh well anyways...I am glad they're there and doing things fun.Considering they are the cubs and youngest batch,I do hope they will enjoy and come out boosted self esteem and improved confidence...insya'Allah.Husband n I are all for them going to camps...as long as those in charge are responsible and take good care of all the kids,in all trustworthy.

Waiting patiently for Tuesday to come.Abah is going to take leave and we'll take you to a good meal after picking you guys at noon.

Meantime,mak abah will distract ourselves from the quietness of the house with pc related entertainment and chatting about you guys and us....I guess,this short separation is healthy because I love and appreciate you guys even more...much much more in our lives.Insya'Allah.Can't wait to hug and kiss you all boys :)

Scouts..enjoy your camp and come out stronger yepp!

wave wave wave ...looked around n realised only them n us were waving :P

Children

2011-09-02T08:35:00.000+08:00

A very very good website to read.Many thanks to Sri Elmawani who shared this in her fb.Take a read sisters!

http://www.naturalchild.org/articles/gentle_guidance.html

Indah Tenang ...Eid Mubarak 2011

2011-09-01T09:39:00.001+08:00

I see my late Pa in everyone on that day...I feel their Love n Warmth.All on the first day of Raya...just like old times.We age,the young ones have grown,the birth of little babes....a cycle.I am so fortunate to belong in this family of Papa n Mama...saying that, I am ever so grateful to Allah..for Papa to meet Mama n got married and have us to be in their families.And I have the highest respect for my Mama for maintaining very good ties n effort put it to strengthen her relationship with allllll her siblings in laws.She tops that really.

I cannot help feeling n saying this.I love my uncles n aunties no matter what was our past.Now matters,not history :)

Thanks all...for the reminisce laughter n love.May Allah bless...amin.

Salam 1 Syawal in advance.

2011-08-26T14:57:00.003+08:00

Salam Jumaat pada semua...saya mohon sedalam dalam maaf zahir batin pada semua atas kesilapan dan kekurangan dari segi post sharings,comments,kelakuan,percakapan,sebutan dan lain lain lagi disini atau di luar secara live bila bertemu empat mata.Semoga Allah s.w.t. redha dengan segala amal ibadah kita sejauh ini dan dosa2 kita semua diampuniNya..amin.Mari kita terus beristiqamah dengan hati yang baru.InsyaAllah.

Thank you to all readers here,near and far for reading.

To my Mountain View,CA silent reader,thanks for following.Hope to read something from you someday.Insya'Allah.

To my beloved longtimenosee Rosma and Kak Za...walaupun kecoh raya tak sekecoh sini sangat, pat sana tapi the spirit of ramadhan n syawal may truly be strongly felt.Looking forward to meet you sisters soon,amin ;)

To Noraini NZ..have a great white Raya.Awesome sangat kan!

To Nora n Khaty, thanks for being here.Mari ke mari ke rumah ok.Jempuuutttt....

To Zee my sweetie and lil Dean...safety first and hope to see you guys someday soon as well.Kissies to lil Dean.Nanti Makcik Sri kasi toy betul2 eh..no more virtuals :))

And everybody else yang masuk/termasuk sini and been following..be in the best of health insya'Allah.Enjoy syawal with ramadhan spirit in tact :)

Selamat HarI Raya Aidilfitri!!

Taqabbalallahu minna waminkum.

Maaf Zahir Batin once again.Insya'Allah..Best Syawal to all :)

The core tests during the merriment.The victory, in maintaining.

2011-08-25T06:49:00.000+08:00

Insya'Allah.

May ALLAH swt preserve whatever steadfastness we have been achieving in Ramadhan n make it habitual in our soul.Amin.

I am worried and scared.May Allah guide us all...let it be...amin.

Hujungnya...

2011-08-23T07:43:00.000+08:00

Goodies untuk tamu insya'ALLAH sudah tersedia.

Goodies for the soul...rasanya masih kena usaha lagi lebih.

Ramadhan tinggal kita menghitung hari.Sayangnya kalau tak di kejar dan rebut.Sayangnyer kalau terlalu lama sangat tenung lappie macam sekarang ni...*yours truly lah ni*..eheh.. insya'Allah...seronok baca berbagai2 bacaan yang sangat meninspirasikan sejak awal ramadhan...ramai yang share berbagai2 ilmu kat sini.Ada sedih,ada gembira,ada kelakar,ada witty and macam2 lagi.

Anak2 nampaknya alhamdulillah....dah set goal nak score full.Insya'Allah.Dah besar gini oklah,possible..amin.Dah bilang,puasa ni bukan setakat tahan makan minum korek hidung telinga *maaf terusterang camni*...jaga cakap,kelakuan,mata,tangan,kaki n macam2.Bila masa mak dia ingat, anak2 kasi remind jaga emosi dan percakapan dengan kawan kawan bila pat sekolah.Kasi kawan rasa happy kat kita.Jangan susahkan guru.Of course they have their on and off days so pasal tu kena kasi reminder sebelum ke sekolah...mak dia tak dapat radar kat sekolah kan..so pepandai you all lah ek.

The ever mysterious Lailatul Qadhar...bila.Soalan begini jugaklah yang yang sepatutnya buat kita lebih giat.Wallahua'lam.Sebelum 10 akhir lagi actually untuk dapat yang ini.Ada ustaz ini berkata lailatul qadhar telah wujud bila esok paginya,sinaran matahari sangat lemah,kurang terang.Wallahua'lam bissawab.The sign is known only after lailatul qadhar.Maknanya,kita kena giat terusdari mula sampai habis ramadhan seikhlasnya.Insya'Allah.

Maaf zahir batin semua...semoga dipanjangkan umur kita semua hingga ramadhan tahun depan.Amin.

Sayang semua sisters yang membaca :)

Balance of Essence

2011-08-17T10:08:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillah...paip bocor jer hari ini.Sratt srott..:PP

Sungguh cepat sekali Ramadhan dalam bibit bibit akhiran nya.

Focus Focus Focus...

Jangan sedih tapi apa yang penting is the now in Ramadhan..

Grab grab grab grab..

Insya'Allah.

Antara kita dan Allah s.w.t...Hanya antara kita dan Allah s.w.t...rahsiakan dan hargailah.

Living

2011-08-13T20:47:00.003+08:00

I watched this video twice.And I had a hard time to stomach what I saw and heard....and knew.Thanks to Suria Mohd for sharing.

It was hard.Hardest on them.What sympathy,what hurt,what depressing emotion I am gaining from all that,is nothing..trivials..

THEY ARE HUNGRY THIRSTY SICK WEAK STRUGGLING...and those are 'living' definition for them.

Oh Allah...please help themPlease open their hearts to pray and hope..please give them strength..please keep their faith for You...Amin.

: (

Eversince,each time I see food,on my table,on the media,on the papers,on the internet,on facebook,on blogs...I simply cannot drool like how I used to.I simply cannot ooh and ahhh and things like that...those children's faces just keep haunting me.They need those food more.They need more attention.They need our sympathy and help most.The number of deaths...ya Allah.Masih boleh ngidam ke?

I am having my own personal show of respect for them.

No food picture or story to share...out of sympathy,empathy.

Well,such posts are hardly here anyways :PP

Nevermindlah if this move is syiok sendiri.Indefinitely this self campaign but this heart is so strong to to just that now :(

I showed my children.They didnt say anything.They were so quiet thru the end.They did not have to say anything.

And I am going to show them again,just to digest and better aware of whats happening at the other side of the world.

Allah has His reasons for all these to happen.Wallahua'lam to all that.

Yum International is having another charity move to stop world hunger.My sis in law who works for Yum is selling carnival coupons to aid the hunger stricken countries.I will update here as soon I have permission to share on blogspot.Insya'Allah.

Please make prayers for those who live with hunger thirst and sickness.My heart to brothers sisters and children in Africa.

8 years

2011-08-08T10:08:00.001+08:00

We miss you so much Papa.

Your generosity,humour,love,warmth,care in all conditions is still strong in our memory.

Al fatihah...may your soul rest with the solihin,amin.

Ya Allah,please forgive all his sins and in Your redha and love.Amin.

The time is always right to do what is right. ~Martin Luther King, Jr. via quotegarden.

2011-08-08T08:58:00.000+08:00

And Freedom is doing Good without chained with assumption,hesistance and reading into things too much.

Insya'Allah.

Have a continuous blessed Ramadhan all.

Maaf Zahir Batin.

Humble + Brag = Humblebrag :P

2011-08-05T10:07:00.001+08:00

This is super duper honest and real.

http://muzlimbuzz.sg/2011/07/18/humblebragging-the-muslim-version/

I mean Super Derupperrr....

Astaghfirullah...

Maaf zahir batin semua,if ever been one or have always been one :(

Thank you teacher for sharing this....may Allah bless.Amin.

Little test for little ones

2011-08-03T22:23:00.001+08:00

The lifts were not in service till a bit after noon today.

The boys had to take flights of stairs to reach 13th floor.

I was not aware till the kids reached our corridor panting, announced the lift was not working hence...

Hearbroken jugak la mak dia but apo nak dibuek...

Sabar eh...that was all I could tell them :)

Alhamdulillah tangga tak bobrok.Elok jer kan...

Doa untuk budak2 ni...semoga diberi kesabaran,tenaga dan kesihatan yg terbaik untuk cubaan2 kecil ini...amin.

Monday sports day....semoga semoga semoga...amin.

Take a listen.Take time for innerpeace.

2011-08-02T08:36:00.001+08:00

A very moving advice by sister Muslema about healing and forgiving.Takes less than 10 minutes.

Dr Muhaya's vlog

2011-08-01T07:23:00.000+08:00

http://www.drmuhaya.com/

Go there to watch Dr Muhaya's Ramadhan vlog daily.Or 'Like' her page on fb 'Prof Dr Muhaya' for updates and words of wisdom :)

Ramadhan Kareem to All...Alhamdulillah,we are so fortunate to have meet 1st day of Ramadhan.

At this time,I am thinking about my late Pa so much :)

Alhamdulillah...

Food for thought 3 hours ago ~Jadilah hamba ALLAH swt , bukan 'hamba ramadhan' ~ (TV3)

2011-07-29T16:17:00.004+08:00

I love TV3 n TV9 for their good amount of islamic programmes and also for their selection of dramas which are considerably well filled with religious message in the plots.And also for their jalan2 cari makan and vacation infotainments.

Just this noon,I took a listen to a talk show discussing about ramadhan..dealing with syaitan n nafs.And one of the speakers spoke the abovementioned quote.

It is not to degrade ramadhan whatsoever...nauzubillahi minzalik not at all but the quote is to make aware that we do the ibadahs n more all in seriousness for Allah s.w.t....not because 'It's Ramadhan!!' per se.Get my drift? Something like..oh ramadhan...i want to do more because there'll be manifold of reward for a simple good deed etc etc in ramadhan.Which is true of course but the main intention is doing all that for Allah swt first, for His love and blessings and forgiveness which should be naturally done and feel in the rest of the months,at any other day...in every breathing..

It is not an intention to burst the bubble of welcoming with all Love and Hopefulness this coming Ramadhan,the month for us to sow sow sow n reap reap reap,insya'Allah....but it is to encourage every muslim to continue doing our same best like how we have been steadfast,genuine,hopeful and more in the same month.I agree with the speaker,pembuka mata dan minda...because I am quite nervous jugak lah cum ramadhan ni...hasil amal ibadah kita boleh nampak selepas ramadhan...kita makin ok ke makin..gulppsss :((

Insya'Allah insya'Allah insya'Allah...makanya kena banyakkan berdoa lah.Semoga diberi ketetapan iman,terbuka hati untuk habitkan diri dan sebagainya.Amin.Yalah,like what one of the speakers said,dalam 11 bulan,its us versus syaitan...in ramadhan its us versus nafs...a battle within :|

Marha Marha ya Ramadhan....Maaf zahir batin sangat2 sekali lagi dan betulkan saya mana yg tak betul...sesungguhnya yg baik,betul dan benar dari Nya sahaja.

*Here is a cartoon I made (using Hassan's account :P) .Cubatrytest naik syiokk pulak.Thanks to Sunshine Sister Seri Banun for sharing the link to make your own cartoon :).Click to view it enlarged. *

Ramadhan...with open arms.

2011-07-26T09:08:00.003+08:00

As Ramadhan is drawing very near,I would like to seek forgiveness to all,family members,relatives,friends,acquaintances,silent readers near and far....for my shortcomings,here and live.Maaf Zahir Batin from me and my family ya.Hope we all will step into Ramadhan with a clean slate,insya'Allah.Amin.Have a productive Ramadhan to all ♥

Make Prayers, Not Enemies

2011-07-26T00:11:00.000+08:00

We definitely do not want enemies especially when Ramadhan is drawing really near.The cleansing I guess starts before ramadhan so that impurities whatsoever that ever settled in the heart would be cleansed and making way for the glorious Ramadhan,month of fabulous rewards,hopes,giving and more.Allah is All Forgiving All Knowing All Merciful....what right do we have to punish others or backbite things we are not sure who they are ourselves when Allah is the GREATEST and we are nothing like .... that.

We do not live with them.We do not see how they live.We think they are like that.But Allah does not think..Allah knows all about us them I you me everything.Allah holds our future.For all we know,they might just be better muslimin or muslimah in that quiet way :)

Forget others,mind our own.Pray for others,insya'Allah the angels pray for us as well.

Ramadhan...it is a beautiful month.Tar not with our opinionated ways.Look inside us and move on to do better.Let the Roh be free from chains of hatred and arrogance.Leave those chains for the iblis n syaitans to wear.Amin...

Allow ourselves to fill with Love to Love others.Leave the blind opinions behind and see good in everyone.

Note to sriself : You do not know.So just do not know and do not create a know.

Enjoy prepping for Ramadhan...prepping soul,housekeeping,food planning and whatnots.

Maaf zahir batin....Gnite :)

Hide n not Seek.

2011-07-24T21:07:00.000+08:00

Best option.....but well, its a 'that is It ! ' moment.

Truly Shocked.Just won't do :\

Sitting through...

2011-07-24T12:20:00.002+08:00

the seminar we (Busu, Mak Lyn and I) went was something that I would love to listen over and over again.Just like the radio segment she has regularly Wednesdays on IKIMfm.

" Cari penghargaan dan redha Allah,bukan cari penghargaan manusia"

"Besar mana kita dan duit kita? Jangan buat kuih bangkit :P "

"Life is all about energy.Positive Negative"

"Tak kira dimana sahaja kamu berada,kalau kamu baik,kamu tetap akan baik ~ Hj Mohd Hj Busu"

"Adakah Kita 'melihat' atau 'Di lihat'? Melihat :adalah roh.Di lihat adalah physical." Mata hati adalah dari roh kita sendiri.

"Badan kita setiap 7 tahun berubah"

"Minda mempengaruhi penyakit.Bila kita sakit hati,kita lemah.Bila kita maafkan,kita kuat."

"Budak belajar untuk wisdom,bukan untuk compete atau achievement."

"Orang yang berjaya adalah orang yang tak compete"

"Kawal fikiran berdasarkan keimanan."

"Hasil kehidupan adalah hasil dari pemikiran."

"My sight is failing but my Vision is increasing."

"Ilmu Yaqin (pada Allah swt)"

"Not being better than someone else but being better than what we used to be"

and Da Bomb quote from someone whom she was inspired by

"LILLAHI (Pada Allah) KU TUJU
REDHAMU KUCARI
KURNIAKAN PADA DIRIKU,MENGASIHIMU DAN MENGENALIMU"

this has to be my purpose of living and death,insya'Allah.

May Allah bless Dr Muhaya for all that she had shared,inspiringly and thought provokingly.Amin.

I am dealing something personal,within.I just have to try because if I don't, I can turn weak.

Insya'Allah...and wassalam.Maaf zahir batin :)

Tact is the art of making a point without making an enemy. ~Howard W. Newton

2011-07-21T14:26:00.000+08:00

Graciousisalwaysgood

: )

It's not what if, it's what now. ~Author Unknown

2011-07-20T11:09:00.001+08:00

Now..
A vow
To wow
No cow
But how
To plough
Make wow
My bow...

Perky Tuesday

2011-07-19T08:33:00.000+08:00

Just received a good news (depends but good news to us) that a sister I have been missing so much eversince is getting married.

And I am so happy for her.

And I hope this news would stop tongues wagging anymore : |

Careless tongues,careless thoughts,careless assumptions.

"Assumptions are termites to a relationship" ~ Henry Winkler....but she got up and seek change.

May Allah bless her with happiness and bliss with her beloved.Amin.

The Contrast

2011-07-18T09:11:00.000+08:00

A back to back event.A contrasting environment and people.

One I psyched myself,another I did not have to.

One I numbed myself to heal,another I let go of myself to be loved effortlessly.

What a contrast of the same thing but different beings.

But I must love them all.

For Allah's sake, I must.

Salam Nisfu Syaaban

2011-07-16T13:02:00.000+08:00

Di Sini saya ingin memohon maaf pada semua pembaca2 blog ini sekiranya selama membaca disini mengguris hati dan sebagainya.

Dari sitemeter sini,yg jauh dan dekat...thank you for being regular readers here.Please forgive me for my shortcomings and may Allah open our hearts to be forgiving slaves and strive to be better Muslims...amin.May Allah forgive us all...amin amin amin.

Have a great weekend.

This has to be the day...

2011-07-14T23:11:00.000+08:00

that I don't know what to think.

I call it OPTICAL ILLUSION day.

You see this but you see that too.

But nobody tells me to get confused.

Up to me lah how and what I do see from there.

So life is all about choices.What do we want for ourselves for Allah's sake?

I had a good happy day today.I'll see it that way because I choose to despite the 'amazing' start and the 'twisted' end.

And I rather cry for every kind people I could think of.It moves me a lot to think that Allah is the Most Giving,to give us people with kindred spirits as friends and aquaintances.

Don't quite understand kan but its ok.This is a moment of cakap sini habis sini .Straight from the heart kind and never mind when not been understood.

Rare moments of quirkiness plus dizzysober.

Maaf zahir batin ya.

There is no U-turn at Dead End.

2011-07-11T08:52:00.002+08:00

Wake up Sri.You're close.....

Innalillahi...

2011-07-10T15:55:00.000+08:00

Just as we stepped into the house, a call came thru and received a sad news,non shocking though.

I had blogged about my visit to SA and KL to visit a sickly aunt.And she passed on today.

Non shocking but truly sad all the same indeed.Cancer at stage 4,what can I say...Innalillahi wa inna ilaihi rojiun.

Told all the boys and they could quickly recall whom.

Wish we all could go there but we'll pray for her rest and peace.Amin.

Al fatiha.

May Allah forgive have mercy on her soul and rest in peace with those of the best iman..Amin.

My Mak Tuo....I will always remember her generosity,care,love,hardworker and a person with bountiful of patience.May Allah bless her soul.

Of making new friends...

2011-07-10T09:43:00.001+08:00

We were supposed to visit them last weekend but something on their side came up and we had to postpone to yesterday.

The twins have a new bestfriend this year and his name is Haris.

I am not bluffing when I say this.He can teach adults a thing or two about,humility.You have to meet and speak to him to see what I mean truly.What I write here is mediocre.

And he is younger by months than my boys.Needless to say,I am so grateful ALLAH s.w.t had opened their hearts to be close with one another.

Haris had a new baby brother a month ago.My boys came home one day and told me that Haris insisted...yes insisted we all (the whole family) come and see his baby bro.I took it as a kiddy talk and less seriously until...his mom called me herself and invited us to come over as her son Haris was consistently expressing to his mom that we should come over.So his mom called.

I was not sure how to respond.Well,I thought about it too much.I did not know his family but we did chance upon each other,nodding and smiling and that was it,at school for a PTM and in the neighbourhood....yep,we live a block away,a pebble's throw,breathing the same Pandan air...but as she is a working mom,we hardly meet like everyday.And I am katak bawah bumbung simen....hardly go out also :PP

So we promised them that we would be coming yesterday afternoon...more for Haris sake.Heeee...husband and I were slightly hesistant because we did not want the already busy mom receiving guests with her hands full with 3 young boys at home.But what made us commited to go anyways is for Haris and I remembered his mom said the same too...for Haris.Heeee...

We came,we talked,we laughed,we shared and we awed.And his mom mentioned this before we left, thanks to Haris.....that the visit that turned into making new family friend,sharing beneficial stuff and more...made possible.Alhamdulillah....and Haris was being a very very very very good host to my boys.He invited them to his room to play,along with his 5 year old brother....when his mom served refreshments in the living room...he took my boys' share,all with his own initiative...gingerly holding two cups of tea with saucer and all....his mom saw that too and I could tell she did not expect that as well...I was thanking Haris for taking care of the boys and how awesome host he was.Came out again and held an empty plate...ingat kan nak apa...he actually took some keropok on the table and filled that empty plate with them, for my boys...I told him they must come out to eat but insisted tak pe takpe....all on his own accord. I left it at that.

His mom said Haris has a very sweet and gentle nature.I told her he is more than that....before we met his parents,my boys told me a few things that Haris said n did.His mom told that some things that Haris does,especially with people,teaches her a lot about being with people.She told Haris is one who would give a helping hand,greet people he is familiar with willingly,knows how to take care of situations and especially this one...he thinks well of people..anyone thru his actions and care.And she added also that Haris is a big helper at home,dealing with his 5 yr old bro amongs other things he does.

I so believe all that.I saw it with my own eyes.Even husband simply adore this boy.How apt to have Budiman as his second name.Amin.

It is not overrated.I welcome his friendship with my sons very much.When we got back,we spoke about Haris being a great host and they agreed.Husain wanted Haris to come over to play in the weekends and of course, that is fine with us.His parents are awesome people too.Young couple but with beautiful adabs and all.Husband n I are grateful to Allah of this new found friendship we made.Although we would not see each other often as they are working people,but what matters is to start an ukhwah with them already and like what Haris' mom told, hoping to meet again someday,insya'Allah.

Thank you Allah for having Haris in our boys' life...and outs.Haris....I believe you are being loved by many.May Allah preserve your beautiful soul that can put us to shame in a lot of ways...amin.

Just numb..and lagu Cina.

2011-07-07T09:45:00.002+08:00

Bukan jahanam eh...just numb.

A lot of reads has influenced me into thinking things new and to have new perspective of stuff especially life.

I am close to being 41.And I am not young anymore.The twins are growing,faster it seems since they reached 7.They have new ideas and awareness of things too.And those are some of the facts that keep me on my toes that my life is numbered.Certain views I had in the pasts have since been renewed.I try to numb myself of the same old bleaghhhh moments when necessary with the same old bleaggghhh thingys.Not worth it lah to dwell.Like a quote quite umpteenth time shared by a lot of people which goes something like if we cannot change a situation,we change our attitude...gitulah.

Whats new....quite a few but can't describe in words as its much to do with feel,gut and reflection.Its a good thing.I dont know but overtime,things seem to be clearer and much awareness how little I achieve.So,am trying but surely insya'Allah.

Kao Jin.Closer.

It is a title song that I have been listening to during my anak dara years.I didnt understand the lyrics and first listened and paid attention to it when I was meddling with my portable radio searching for a station and stopped short when I heard the lovely melody of this song.And guess what....since then,every night while chilling after work, grabbed my radio n went to the local mandarin station.

Then many many years later,recently teringat pulak nak dengar lagu ni yang once made me so into the song and all.Mentel kan.So I have been flashbacking my solo years with this song these few days,shared with my husband and fuzzy all over ini makcik patplo ni.Heeeee...I actually searched for it via google.I typed whatever sounds like the chorus...chingwa lah...haperlah...tak reti tapi macam nak jugak carik.So went to youtube and typed the singer's name.This one I know :)))) Laa...banyak pulak list dia berjela2.Memang tak tau apa title dia masa tu.So what I did,...I clicked2 what I thought the video image window looked sentimental lah.Ni semua masa budak2 dah tido,tugas siang hari dah beres,malam2 yg sepi...mak nak rehat2 lah kan.

Check2..Semua salah and almost sudah lah....then before logging out,I saw this picture of him forlorn in yellowish shot,cakap dalam hati,haaaa..ni muka dia tengah sedih...ok cuba...jenggggg...baru betul...hehehehhe.Macam carik kawan lama gitu...teruk naa kan.

Tu lah kisah lagu nostalgia zaman anak dara kita.Lagu Cina pertama yg caught my attention busat busat lepas tang wo men to chai ichi..chai ichi..chai ichi... : PP (tau tak lagu apa tu?? )

Oklah...tak nak lebih lebih sangat.Maaf zahir batin...have a good weekendaroundthecorner....

Toy

2011-07-05T21:01:00.000+08:00

I had posted that my hp was not working well and museum eligible already.

And yesterday I saw the battery actually bloated : ( and that was when I knew I had to depart with it forevah (as contact tool). I still love its camera.Feeling HD gitu : | Did a lot of deeds to my picture blogs.Goodbye Nokia : (

And for a zero dollar with a new plan,I got a newbie last weekend with hubster's assistance alhamdulillah....so kawan2 yg ada nombor saya dah boleh sms or call ok..hee.Bukan prasan fofular lah tapi just for your info with regards to a note cum post in my previous' stating I am not contactable gitu :P

Masih blur sotong kurita.Internet besok baru boleh access.I am looking forward to this one....heee.Other else,camera dia...mmmm..I still prefer my old hp punya.Terang,sharp and especially with good lighting,memang cantik gambar tu jadiknyer.Apo nak dikato...

Besok budak2 kena pergi sekolah Jepun,their second trip after last year.I remember last year they brought a paper toy home,origami based.Tapi mak bo sukat...bukan tak suka barang made in japan tapi menan dia buat kita terkejut2 macam belon letup2.....they all suka no hal. Mak dia kan phobia bende2 letup2 kejut2 gitu....phobia belon,goreng telor ceplok,plastic gelembung kasi letop...asal letop2 lah...tapi saya suka laptop :))))))

Weekends would be filled with gatherings.Nisfu Syaaban on the way...then next,yassinan...then seminar...then yassinan lagi...I look forward to mama's place for yassin especially for my beloved late papa.My hero due to his down to earth,generous,warm and hardworking persona.I miss him so much.August 10 would be his 8th 'homecoming' anniversary to the One.Al fatiha.Alhamdulillah for all the men in my life.And Pa is tops in my list to model his humility.

So,there goes the coming weekends....then the Beloved Blessed Giving Rewarding Ramadhan...may Allah prolong our lives to live thru Ramadhan this year.Amin.

Hopeful one.